Scared to tell therapist

[Punky143]

Been there done that and guess where I landed? In the hospital. Twice. Overdosed, misdiagnosed and 0 recall what took place. This was before my DID dx. Some parts have no tolerance being around others and when their really angry, it's thoughts of death. Cutting, stabbing then...not towards anyone but myself. Sometimes I'm mad in the morning. Just for waking up. Having to feel the way I do yet another day. These parts create chaos for the others and some would give into the damand too. But I'm afraid to go into detail with my T based on what the laws force her to do. I have too much PTSD from being in the hospital for medical and/or psych. So, do I suck it up and tell my T everything or explain in brief??

 

[WishfulThinking123]

Well I know at least with my t she doesn't feel obligated to do anything unless I have a plan and I am really intent on doing it. My T knows about self harm and she doesn't do anything and I have discussed wanting to kill myself- like the thoughts and that's fine in her book to discuss this without having to go through with any further action. A lot of people have thoughts of wanting to kill themselves when going through depression/PTSD. However, if you have an actual plan to commit then she most likely will do something but, again that would be in your best interest because I for one wouldn't want to see anything happen to you! I hope I answered your question?

 

[Crow]

My T views suicidal ideation as part of collapse (the phase past freeze). I've expressed to her several times over the years that I have specific plans. One time she asked me for a contract which I said was stupid. She made sure I had the suicide hotline phone number. I was confused in the past why she didn't do more or react or report but I guess she has an innate knowing of when I'm really going over the edge, in which case she has reorganized her schedule to get me into session immediately. Don't think this information is at all helpful. But I'd say talk to her.

 

[whiteraven]

I completely understand your worry, but I think if you keep on as you are without talking about it, you are more likely to end up in the hospital, not because your t put you there but because one of your parts got angry and out-of-control and overdosed. Now, if you had an honest, open discussion about this then maybe you could figure out a way to work with those parts so they don't deal with that anger in such a self-destructive way anymore.

 

[Yasmine]

Been there done that and guess where I landed? In the hospital. Twice. Overdosed, misdiagnosed and 0 r...

A responsible adult would say without a doubt tell her NOW! Especially if you are feeling so very bad right now and it appears that you are perhaps seeking confirmation that you should tell her and that every thing will be ok if you do( I sincerely hope it will be for you)

If you continue to feel this way and don't feel able to change this at the moment there is a fairly good chance it may just get worse ( I believe based on my very limited understanding statistics would prove that right but perhaps not and stats are not often as reliable as one would hope )

My experience is others make you feel obliged to do something or make you feel you have too or worse , force you too you always have someone to blame if it does not work out for you ( often in part ,,this is not only justified but understandable )

If hospitalization has felt that detrimental in the past what resources do you have ( people , money , services , friends, family are what comes to my mind immediately) that you can comfortably call on and to what extent do you feel the ability to move forward with out telling your T?

If your anxiety or dep