that_1_girl
Confident
I don’t know where to post this thread, so feel free to relocate it, mods.
I relapsed yesterday after 29 months and 13 days. I relapsed after my therapist faxed in my referral to shepherd Pratt complex trauma hospital. I’ve been fighting not to relapse for months and yesterday I failed. I did it 3 times yesterday and once so far today. Im not saying this for attention but because secrecy and deception is a big part of my self harm process and I’m trying to counteract that. I really badly need treatment, I have had a great deal of ineffectual of downright harmful therapy and I now have a great team but my trauma symptoms are intense. I am trying to get back out in time to go back to school in the fall but I have my doubts, given how long my referral process is taking and I don’t think I’m even on the waitlist yet. I promised I’d get to treatment alive but I didn’t promise clean.
I relapsed yesterday after 29 months and 13 days. I relapsed after my therapist faxed in my referral to shepherd Pratt complex trauma hospital. I’ve been fighting not to relapse for months and yesterday I failed. I did it 3 times yesterday and once so far today. Im not saying this for attention but because secrecy and deception is a big part of my self harm process and I’m trying to counteract that. I really badly need treatment, I have had a great deal of ineffectual of downright harmful therapy and I now have a great team but my trauma symptoms are intense. I am trying to get back out in time to go back to school in the fall but I have my doubts, given how long my referral process is taking and I don’t think I’m even on the waitlist yet. I promised I’d get to treatment alive but I didn’t promise clean.