Self harming

[xCountryQueenx]

Yes, I have self - harmed. I used to scratch myself, cut myself and burn myself when I would get depressed, frustrated or angry... I constantly blamed myself for my pain.

Why did I do it? At the time, it felt like I was losing control over everything else in my life... But that was the one thing that I could control and it gave me a sense of relief... It made all my other problems seem so much smaller.

 

[Lucycat]

Why did I do it? At the time, it felt like I was losing control over everything else in my life... But that was the one thing that I could control and it gave me a sense of relief...

I can so relate to this. Control is the key. If I feel I am out of control, or if somebody else is trying to control me, then I am far more likely to make myself sick. It has got me thinking now - I cannot remember the last time. That has to be a good thing :)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

For the past few days my sexual abuse memories have been really bad.

I have had lots of urges to take a knife and slash my breasts. Right across on the top. I am not sure why, it's not like I don't like them. It's been a strong urge. I imagine myself doing it and how good it would feel.