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anxietysteve
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Hi guys. So I''ve now been to 4 sessions with a private psychologist so far. It's part of my employee assistance program so it's not military specific. He thought it'd be a good idea to talk my whole life from my earliest memory and work our way up to my deployment in Iraq. We finally made it to that point this past session. I decribed to him arriving in Kuwait and then moving to VBC. I talked about t-walls, sand, GP-mediums, what I thought the first time I saw an MRAP, and finally leaving the wire for the first time as a pax heading to our new home on a FOB. I found it hard to talk about all of it. It was the first time I had to describe anything about Iraq in detail to anyone. I haven't seen or talked to anyone I was deployed with since we de-mob'd so none of this ever comes up. It's like I have all these thoughts running through my mind all the time and no outlet. Again, I never saw a dead body, never fired a shot. I sometimes feel guilty that I'm seeking help for this while there are vets who have been in real shit who wait at the VA. I don't want to cause a delay... Well anyway, I will continue treatment for now. I have my first VA appointment next week I think.
I'll keep my head up.
I'll keep my head up.
