You said you're still planning... or, stopped & came back to - which tells me you're pretty good *planner* and driven at it - hey, that's a good thing.
So only need to change that its sui ones.
So, how do you flip the items of that around?
I had a thing with trains a while back.
Turned out what my brain was saying was I need to be more *on* trains... traveling. Travel inserted to life fixed that obsession with that mode of suicidality that just wouldn't let up for years.
My head's nonsense with guns a while back was also something else, like needing a larger plan and trust issues. Not about the fricking gun.
So wheres the catch, what are those plans really telling about what you need?
Because nah, you gone or hurt is never it.
So only need to change that its sui ones.
So, how do you flip the items of that around?
I had a thing with trains a while back.
Turned out what my brain was saying was I need to be more *on* trains... traveling. Travel inserted to life fixed that obsession with that mode of suicidality that just wouldn't let up for years.
My head's nonsense with guns a while back was also something else, like needing a larger plan and trust issues. Not about the fricking gun.
So wheres the catch, what are those plans really telling about what you need?
Because nah, you gone or hurt is never it.