Suicide the ultimate avoidance

[Deanna]

Too tired. Screen hurting eyes. Sorry. I am failure.

Management knows they are over-working you. Everyone else has thought about doing the same thing. ( letting them have it) Be easy on yourself. No one is making fun of you.. They know you're tired.

 

[osiris]

Bed day helped my heart rate. I ate (ok only oatmeal/porridge but that’s more than a day at work with only coffee). Body less tense.
My head is still turning over a million to a dozen. Suggestions to go on medical leave, or quit my job and support is good, but I’m still stuck with my broken self, can’t escape my own head. How do I make that bit stop?

 

[osiris]

“You die and you die and then you are beyond death”
One for the win from CS Lewis.

 

[Ronin]

Some of us here *have* died (and were brought back, or I wouldn't be typing).

Death doesn't stop the suffering.
It leaves you, and everyone around you, unable to do anything about it.

Leaves another forever void.

If you have 'just' your head, even if it's very bad lands and dark in there, to deal with?
That's good news ;)
Aaall the space to start healing that one, without new stressors, moving past the things that feel so over the top.

Cheers so much on eating :D :tup:
Progress :D
I'd break out my pompoms but don't know where I put 'em things.

 

[osiris]

No good news about inside my head ever, Ro :(
Too much space and too little all at the same time.
Plus zero coffee today. No wonder it’s been hard, I’m on a caffeine withdrawal.

 

[osiris]

Cheers so much on eating :D:tup:
Progress :D
I'd break out my pompoms but don't know where I put 'em things.

:roflmao:

 

[Ronin]

With no space and all the headnoise... that's now. It settles with time (and I'm told age... no clue about that. Just because I'm too old for this shit ain't mean I'm that old. ;) )

So give it time, patience, and all the coffee & oatmeals self care goodies on a regular basis.

 

[osiris]

f*ck it. Another near miss going round a bend too fast. This is becoming an unhealthy habit.
*locks self in room to be safe*

 

[bellbird]

Please be careful.
Going around bends too fast puts both yours and others lives at risk, and we don't want either bad to happen.

Perhaps switch to walking or public transport until you can guarantee safety in a car again. It's really not worth it.

 

[osiris]

@bellbird I get it. Sorry :( I would hate to hurt anyone else. Getting a sick guilty feeling in my throat right now.
Its definitely worse when I am struggling with panic like this morning, coz I was coming into work again. :banghead:

 

[osiris]

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[Ronin]

Can you talk to us Osi, please?

That dot is kinda worrying. :hug: