Symptomatic at most inconvenient times...

[csa072112]

So today I was walking around Downtown Savannah with my mom and my sister celebrating my sisters birthday, we made a trip down just for her. Things were fine, nothing going on and it was absolutely beautiful.
But inside I have been feeling overwhelmed by my emotions, my PTSD is in full force and I am looking around me wanting nothing more than to escape and be alone. I can feel my eyes filling with tears and I am fighting them as hard as I can so nobody suspects anything.
I’m confused because I’m not sure what the trigger was at this point, but I’m trying so hard to get it under control. The harder I try the more I feel like I’m losing my grip though. Please tell me I’m not alone in having these moments, because right now I feel like I’m the only person as I watch the world pass me by.

 

[EveHarrington]

Yes, this is completely normal for PTSD. There doesn't always have to be a trigger (as in directly related to our trauma). Sometimes it's just a matter of being overstimulated or overwhelmed and our symptoms get set off. You are not alone.

 

[jaay]

Sometimes, there isn't an actual trigger, stuff just builds up and we begin to feel overwhelmed in our environment. It happens, and as much as it sucks, you're not some kinda hyper-PTSD-triggered-one-off-case, a lot of us are the same.

 

[DmenD]

You don't have to be alone, I'm with you too. Yesterday my son went into the hospital because of an infection, it is bad. I had to step out as I needed some air? I don't dare cry in front of my child because I try to control my emotions. So, I'm over here in Norfolk, VA just looking at the waters. I love my family, but just wish I could have a friend that could make me forget about family life sometimes.

 

[csa072112]

You don't have to be alone, I'm with you too. Yesterday my son went into the hospital because of an infection, it is bad. I had to step out as I needed some air? I don't dare cry in front of my child because I try to control my emotions. So, I'm over here in Norfolk, VA just looking at the waters. I love my family, but just wish I could have a friend that could make me forget about family life sometimes.

I definitely understand exactly how you feel. If you ever want to talk or anything feel free to message me, I don't have many friends around here, so I am always up for meeting some new ones.

 

[Anana]

Oh! Great that you started this topic. This relates to me too. And my T always insists that I just do not "catch" a trigger bit actually I'm just a super trigger hunter already and there are really episodes when there is no any trigger and you just switch off when you are just stressed with bad or positive emotions.

 

[grit]

Definitely not alone. When you said "

I am looking around me wanting nothing more than to escape and be alone. I can feel my eyes filling with tears and I am fighting them as hard as I can so nobody suspects anything.

I thought I wrote that.

I hope you feel better soon. My advise to you is make a space for the triggering things to show themselves. Open and accepting.

That is how i learned I was experiencing abandonment. I was just in and out of mental pauses...until I could put a finger on. Took a while though.