My last T was not a bright candle in the woodshed....she was kinda dim. So, having a T who is really knowledgeable about the C-PTSD/PTSD and other comorbid disorders is essential for the journey. I don't need a mother....I just need a guide. This new T is really on the ball and knows her stuff. So, while I know some things about me and where I want to go, and the T is considered an expert guide, she may see things differently in traveling the MH trail....but having a quality T makes the journey easier I think.I kind of already blah blahed about this, but I'm good for blahing again
I see ts as paid professionals, who have education and training that I don't, who can help me figure this crap out. I've been with both of them for more than 5 years, and in my view it's almost a business relationship more than a "feelings" one.
They have knowledge I need to get my shit together.
Both of them say I intellectualize way to much, which is why I don't get attached in the way many others do. So we work on building a place where I can feel safe showing emotions to another human, rather than working to give me someone I have some kind of relationship with. Although T did ask me just last week if I trusted her. My answer? I'm not sure what you mean by that. Do I trust you to keep stuff confidential on a professional level? Yep. Do I trust that if I tell you some of the really sick stuff you won't bail on me? uhmmmm.. more than I used to. Probably not as much as you would like.
I say they are my tour guides on the journey from ptsd mess to healthy human.
Not sure if they are terribly thrilled by that - since it seems a lack of attachment puts me in a minority of their clients. But they have both said over the years that it is their job to meet me where I'm at, not where they would like me to be. So, it seems to work.