((((((((((((( Anni ))))))))))))))))))),
Thank you, beloved Anni!!!
Please never hesitate to say anything to me, whether you're afraid of sounding kooky or not, dear Anni!!!
You have more wisdom and common sense in your little finger, than most people I know who proclaim themselves as "normal". I have loved, and gotten much from, all your posts.
I know you're right... I felt Matty jump up onto the bed and snuggle under my arm, the night he died.
Because you said you talk to your dear girl, I've stopped restraining myself from talking to him, and now talk to him freely. It not only eases the intense pain, but it's helping me grieve as I tell him what I'm feeling, how much I miss him, about the cats he would have loved to pick up and carry around.
I'm still having a great deal of difficulty coping. I think if he had died of old age, of natural causes, it would be easier.
But he died unnecessarily, from contaminated dog food (recalled, but with no warning given about it to local customers).
It happened so fast, there was minimal chance to take in that he was dying, until the end...
(Feeling very sick,....)
He was so smart, and had such a wonderful and goofy sense of humor.
Thank you for helping me grieve him, Anni...
I'm so sorry you lost your dear old girl; and I am so grateful that you would help me in my loss.
Thank you for your nurturing, caring words...
And thank you for your smiling Christmas hat on your horse... you make me smile...
Merry Christmas, Sweetheart! (((((((((((( Anni ))))))))))))),
Love,
Deer