That's It I Guess..

[DMerish]

Hmmm, interesting RadicalG - I had never heard of the term before but just looked it up. I think the definition fits my ex to a "T" who was dignosed with Narcisstic Personality Disorded (NPD) - not sure about Mr. WickedChild tho-

 

[wicked child]

The best way to diagnose is to see weekly.

She was only seen me twice. Of course I score low on anxiety. That's what the Fluoxeine is for. I told her that.

It is a med for depression and obssesive compulsive disorder-- the latter is an anxiety disorder.

Has your therapist given you the TAS (Toronto Alexithymia Scale)?

Thanks for this. I shall google for it soon.

I did look up the scapegoat child and read some interesting information. I was not the scapegoat to parents but was with 4 older siblings.

I'm glad you got something from my post. Good luck with your T

Hmmm, interesting RadicalG - I had never heard of the term before but just looked it up. I think the definition fits my ex to a "T" who was dignosed with Narcisstic Personality Disorded (NPD) - not sure about Mr. WickedChild tho-

Hi Drew
When I saw this scapegoat thing, I just knew that this was my main problem. Then, after reading about it, I read about NPD. That lead me to an online NPD questionaire.

It said that narcs score 20/20
celebrities score between 12-16 out of 20
I scored 5/20

I dont feel like a narc. I don't want to compete with god. And I dont think I am god gift to women, quite the opposite in fact.

I have found this test. Here are the results:

Test Results: 91 Points



Non-alexithymia: You show few to no alexithymic traits. If you are interested in Alexithymia we would be happy to have you as a regular visitor on our pages.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

That therapist is an even bigger idiot than I initially thought. Essentially she says "you don't have PTSD because you are on medication and the medication is working!"

You are better off without her! She would have just wasted your time. I hope you stick around!

 

[wicked child]

Thanks Solara
On reflection I find her comment on "blowing up" interesting. It is as if I am not doing enough of it !

I can understand a woman who has suffered th horror of rape blowing up often, or a combat vet who has been shot at, or seen his comrades destroyed by bombs losing control.

But I am been coditioned to internalise all my anger and rage. To do otherwise would result in another beating as a child.

I can blown up. It is something I am ashamed of later, and would rather not do. A few angry words work must better for me today.

I agree with you. I think I shall forget about her, and seek help elsewhere.

 

[wicked child]

Well, I've seen the counsellor twice. She thinks that I don't have ptsd. I wrote to her saying that I think that perhaps I do, and that I would like to see a psychiatrist.

So she writes to say that there is no psychiatrist at her clinic, and that she has discharged me from her service. She tells me that she has written to my GP, who will refer me to a psychiatrist. I am now awaiting a letter from the same.

In addition to this issue, I now understand that I am a scapegoated child. If only I could of found this earlier, like 40 years ago, and not this month.


Now all for now folks.

 

[DMerish]

Hi WC -

I bet the psychiatrist will see things differently than the counselor did. I know things have moved slowly in terms of seeing folks that could possibly help you: I hope you're able to get to see the psychiatrist without much delay.

Drew

 

[cherryblossom]

I hope you find the right support you need. This isn't just about a diagnosis, although the right diagnosis can definitely help.

I don't understand why a professional would turn you away, but you just need to forget that experience and move on. It took me a very long time to find the right person who could help me. Maybe I'm awkward, or difficult, but if that's the case, so be it.

Whether you have PTSD or not, is not for me to say, nor should you overly dwell on a diagnosis. The more important thing is to find someone who 'gets you', and can help you to move forwards. Don't ever give up in that search. I think you've encountered someone who is less than useless, but there are a lot of amazing therapists out there - you just have to find one, and you will, so long as you don't give up the search.