General The Angry Thread

[Gryffy]

I'm angry that you approached me first and started a relationship knowing that you push people away but didn't warn or tell me about the PTSD first. I can see not wanting to bring it up on a first date, and that it's difficult for you to talk about, but you f*cking OWE it to someone to let them know what they're getting into before getting intimate.

I'm angry that you thought we could just automatically switch to being platonic friends overnight, like nothing had happened, and like it wasn't a big deal. And that when I explained why it was a problem for me, that I do in fact have abandonment issues, you COMPLETELY ignored any pain I was going through because it hurt you too much to think about it. Meanwhile I had just lost a loved one, was at risk of losing others, my entire family is at war with one another, and on top of that you triggered my abandonment issues by abruptly breaking up with me with minimal communication, just like too many others have. You said you really wanted to be friends, but apparently you meant fairweather friends.

PTSD sufferers do not have a monopoly on "overwhelmed." I was overwhelmed too, and I still found the energy to try and work through this with you. You couldn't do the same, and not only that, but you couldn't even acknowledge that I was in pain because it would be too much for YOU to deal with. You said that this was "too much drama" and that it was too much effort for you to try and earn back my trust, so then you said that we shouldn't even work towards a friendship. So basically, you abandoned me twice. If I didn't know you were so strong and caring and dedicated to helping others in other areas of your life, I'd say you were a weak and selfish coward.

I forgive you for the things that were the PTSD. But these things weren't; they were just your poor judgment and inability to see beyond your own problems.


And it kills me because on the one hand, I know I deserve better than this. On the other hand, if you didn't have PTSD or were at least better at managing it responsibly, we very well could have been perfect for each other.

 

[Never Give Up]

I am not angry at you (wife). I am saddened that you will not allow me to love you like a kind and loving husband would want to do.
I am sad that we sleep in different rooms and you lock you door in order to feel protected.
I am sad that I have "wants and needs" that are not being met and I won't stray from you until the (possible divorce is final).
I am sad that you stole my heart and made me feel secure as a man and gave me passion in life.
I am sad that you walked away from God once you finished your breast cancer treatments.
I am sad that my kids are suffering from the pain that you carry.

However, I am hopeful that there is still HOPE for us.

I am hopeful that I will not give up on you even if you decide to cheat on me to feed your needs and neglect mine.

I have 1 thing you can never take from me, that is my happiness knowing the I have God in my life and through Him I can do amazing things.

I pray that you get help before you destroy the love that has been there for you.
xoxo - your devoted Husband

 

[Chris516]

I am not angry at you(friend I have known for ten years). I am saddened that you will not give me a straight story of what want from our relationship.

I am sad that we still have not met face-to-face after ten years

I am saddened that, something keeps drawing us together emotionally, while in relationships with other people and keep getting close to the definition of an emotional affair.

I am sad that I have feelings and emotions, wants and needs, that aren't being met. I know that

I was out of touch for nine months. I will never do that again. Even if you don't believe me.

I am sad, that you stole my heart eleven years ago, but I had to keep my feelings a secret. I even questioned the way I was feeling when you almost died. Because I had an emotional breakdown at a medical conference thinking you might die from what I have lived with my entire life.

I am sad that, you have shut me out during your PTSD therapy. Instead of allowing me to emotionally support you

I am sad that you have been suffering for so long.

I am sad that I didn't express my love for you eleven years ago when your (late) fiancé was killed in Iraq. But you were vulnerable, and I didn't want to take advantage of you. I have too much respect for you, to do that to you.

 

[K201]

I am angry that you haven't written back to my text last night about how your day way. I am angry that you cannot even think of me for a moment when you are the only thing running through my head. I'm angry that I am going to go to ask about a therapist for myself in order to help ultimately help YOU, yet you cannot even find time to answer my text.

I want to send you a text- "are you alive" and when you respond with "lol ya" I want to tell you to go f*** yourself.

I am mad I am sitting in my car crying at lunch f****** writing this about you when I feel like you could give a sh*t if I live or die.

 

[Lioness037]

I am so angry that you got angry over nothing and left me! How could you leave after saying the stuff you did and making me open up to you?

I have my own issues and own disability and every day is a struggle for me but I was willing to try for us and I am so angry that the only person you think of is you.

And why do you think I deserve the silence?! You just leave me with a good luck then silence?!

I am so angry with myself because I want you back so much and how is that fair to me?! You are the frickin' @- hole. Why do I still care?!

 

[RubyRedShoes]

I am angry that every day I wake up and do not get a good morning, because for you no morning is good.
I am angry that you sit over there and play games for hours on your IPad and never even acknowledge me.
I am angry that you call my dog an a**hole every time you get upset.
I am angry that you lie to your family about what is going on with you and keep secrets from them
I am angry that I know all of the secrets. Just. Me.
I am angry that your friend keeps you fully stocked with pills that he gets from his VA doctor.
I am angry that you take the pills and sleep for days.
I am angry that you don't do what you say you will, when you say that you will do it.
I am angry that I pay all of the bills all of the time, because you QUIT your job. Quit it because you were mad.
I am angry because you have a daughter you do not see and an ex wife who wants to hit you hard.
I am angry because you don't take care of your legal matters and now there is a warrant for your arrest.
I am angry that you don't help around the house.
I am angry that we never go anywhere together, or do anything together.
I am angry that you only leave the house to go buy cigarettes or beer.
I am angry that we have been together for almost 6 years.
I am angry that I feel like I have WASTED my time with you.
I am angry that I want to leave you and be with a different kind of man.
I am angry that I feel angry!

 

[Chloekim]

DITTO!!! JessMar0126

I am angry at you for: 1. Breaking down my wall 2. Making me believe that you really loved me 3. Buying stuff for my house only for you to disappear on me the next day leaving me to sit and stare at it for the last 12 days 4. Making yourself a drawer at my house making me feel like you are on it for the long haul 5. Dropping the L bomb on me and not hearing from you since 6. Sending me kisses in the middle of the afternoon only for you to turn into an A hole 4 hours later 7. Leaving me hanging here not know whether you are dead or alive or if you are coming back to me 8. Wondering if this is a PtSD issue or if you are an utter Jack A**! 9. I am SOOO ANGRY AT YOU for making me miss you more and more each day when I should be moving on with my life!!!! 10. I am REALLY ANGRY that I am now on a PTSD forum every moment I get trying to understand you! 11. I am angry because I sit and wonder if you give two F*** how I am feeling right now!!!!

 

[Chloekim]

I am sad that this thread is making want to give up on the woman I love. :-( Yep Im a pussy!

 

[Never Give Up]

Get angry....don't give up. Never Give Up.
@Chloekim allow this thread be a place to leave your anger and worries behind. Refocus and keep up looking up. You are not alone during the dark times.

 

[Chloekim]

I'm just really down and tired today. I am having a hard time being angry.

I am upset that she loved me so completely and then, nothing! No love, it left her eyes and everything. I hate that she called me her people and left me. I hate that she pushed me out of her life physically but still is holding onto me via text. but I am also grateful that she is holding onto me via text. It makes me sick that I feel like stranger. It makes me angry the her that i knew seems like she is gone. I am angry I loved her and she hurt me after telling me she loved me. I am angry at myself for being too dependant on her and I feel like i pushed her away. I am angry her jobs pushed me away. I am angry she will not let me take care of her financially and protect her emotionally. I am angry I was not enough I am angry I may never be enough and I am hurting so badly I am angry the caring woman that I love is gone. I am angry that she gets annoyed with our text conversations.
and I have to stop because I don't want to cry at work.

 

[Never Give Up]

I am angry at myself for being too dependant on her

Do you really think she knows what she really wants. You may be the only strong unchanged thing in her life. That may be why she is holding onto you with an occasional text. She is testing her own trust by trying to do it on her own, then contacting you when she feels less than confident. That is just my 2 cents. I hope I can help.

I am married and experiencing similar issues with the love and intimacy. It has been 5 months of total shut out. No phone calls, texts, emails and we live in the same house. I feel at times I am invisible. I did get mad and angry....then as time passed I knew it really wasn't me that was the issue. The hard part is not taking the blame for her emotions and actions.

 

[Justmehere]

I am angry angry angry tonight. I'm angry I said "no, stop" and it meant NOTHING.