General The Angry Thread

[Trice]

I'm angry because:

• You say you love me
• You have no problems walking away
• You won't get help
• You never feel remorse
• You don't care that because you suffer, I suffer
• You don't realize this is destroying us
• I love you:cry:

 

[Ketamine Dreams]

I am angry when you:

-sleep for 12 hours and I have to take care of the kids
-blame me for issues within you
-are tired, though I went to bed after you and woke up before you
-emotionally withdraw for more than a week
-spend more time on Facebook than with me
-refuse to do specific things that could help you (exercise, use the Happy Light I bought you, etc.)
-imply that my wants and needs are unimportant
-avoid the ones who love you
-assume everything is great because you are getting what you want, which is apparently to be left alone and be unhappy
-struggle with eating issues and the kids are around

 

[Sephira]

I am angry because when you isolate you don't seem to miss me at all. I miss you so much when you are gone.
I am angry because you enjoy time alone or with friends more than with me.
I am angry that I still get butterflies in my stomach when you speak, but you treat me like I'm disposable sometimes.
I'm angry that I feel like you clam up around me and share so much more with your new friends.
I'm angry because I cherish your calls and messages, but oftentimes you don't even bother to answer mine.
I miss you and get so livid that this disease has stolen so much from us both.

 

[OrangeJulius]

I am angry that I didn't get your support when I was incredibly sick. Rarely do I need to lean on you, and when I needed you, you weren't there. You stopped texting me back because I didn't like a joke you made. I was in the bathroom, in tears on day 7 of my body hating me. I had been feeling beyond awful all day and because I knew you were having a crappy day at work I didn't say anything. I waited til you got home and were away from all the conflicting work personalities. And what? I said I didn't care about your joke and you ignore me. Fine. We're both in bad moods. We both snapped. Nobody's fault. 45 minutes later I'm feeling a little better and apologize even though I had nothing to apologize for. And you basically tell me I need to be more conscious of what YOU'RE going through. ARE YOU f*ckING KIDDING ME! Fine. Whatever. Good night asshat. Maybe take a page out of your own book sometime.

 

[bilerchick63]

I am SO f###### angry that I punched the fridge tonight we then you texted you weren't coming home yet again. The kitchen floor has memorabilia all over it because I can't stand, for one more second, any of this.

What's worse, is we are six weeks from our wedding and in the two and a half years we've been together, you have never treated me like this...not once. I'm sure that people will say it's because of the wedding that causes you to freak out. I call bullshit.

The last three weeks rank right up there with some of the worst days of my life and I have no clue how to handle it.

None.

And I am angry that I have nobody who understands. I have never felt so alone.

 

[Lidia]

- I am angry that you can never plan anything with me, yet you are perfectly able to plan things with your Mum and with your band.

- I fell sick as a result of your selfish behaviour. I asked you to look after me when I was sick and you just blanked me and disappeared. How can I possibly consider you a man? How can I trust you to ever have children with me?

- I am angry that, yet another time I was ill, you could (by your own admission) text your colleague every hour asking her to join your office party at the pub, yet you did not text me once to check how I was.

- I am angry for throwing back on my face the most thoughtful birthday present I ever got anyone, then asking me not to be in touch because I have hurt YOU by offering the present.

- I am angry at your insensitivity. The very day after we made love for the first time, you call me drunk, lusting after some singer in some club. How is that OK?

- I am angry that you spoke of commitment, of marriage, of kids, of a house in the sun...and yet, I cannot ever see you for an evening or a weekend.

- I am angry that you only showed your sweet, caring self to get me to fall for you, then turned into a selfish monster.

- I am angry that you did not agree to see me today - I had to leave you via a text message and you did not even bother reply.

 

[Lidia]

I am so angry that, for the first time in my life (at 35), you stole my heart for real. I am angry that I just adore you so so much, that I know I will never meet someone whom I will adore as much as you. I am angry that you told me that you knew me, that I was not a stranger the very first time me met. I am angry that I felt so viscerally connected to you, like we had been lovers in a previous life. I am angry that you told me that what we had felt too unique to be what happens to others. I am angry that you told me that I was the woman you dreamt to marry as a child. I am angry that I find you so painfully attractive. I am angry that making love to you felt like the world disappeared and it was just the two of us left - I felt that and you felt that too, because you told me that. Why did you tell me all these things and then disappeared on me??? Was I not the mother of your children?? I am still there...my soul still pours from your essence...I am so angry that I had never let any man have so much power over me...I trusted you...I love our love...I adore you and want to adore you forever. :cry:

 

[Ladyghosthunter]

Okay, here are my gripes:

1. Narcissistic men who think their **** don't stink. I tell them otherwise and they get hostile with me; they just can't handle the truth.

2. Those who think that they are not responsible for what hurt they've done to others.

3. Men who don't call you by your name but instead call you "beautiful" or "babe" or "gorgeous". When that happens, I tell them, "My name is Heather, not babe or whatever. Mali creatura: Praecipio tibi in Nomine Iesu Christi exire!" That scares the mess out of them...

4. I help those who truly need me and refuse to be abused or used by those who think they can get away with it by sweet talking to me. I can read people, they do not fool me.

5. I'm easy to get along with people quite easy but my PTSD keeps me guarded.

Oh I have more but I'm too tired to gripe anymore. If you all need me, a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen to without judgment, I'm here.

Heather

 

[sonic b]

I'm glad to see I'm not the only one that's pissed off angry all day every day

 

[OrangeJulius]

GAH! I'm in the middle of putting together an AWESOME f-ing present for you. I've contacted all the people who helped you get to where you are today and where you will be in 11 days. And they have taken time out of their lives to write AWESOME letters to you for this present. As I'm sitting here totally head over heels for you I send you a fun text. And because of your inability to humor my quirk of overexplaining things, and after over 2 years you still haven't figured out that i generally have a fun tone and you would f*cking know if my tone was anything but fun....that fun text turned into an argument about absolutely nothing. GAH! Like I said before.....YOU FRUSTRATE ME! Except this one is real. The one before was goofy. Now....back to this neverending project....which i swear to god! if you get more upset about the fact that I've contacted these people than appreciative of what it means....i will lose my shit. It will be very wise for you to only express gratitude in spite of any other feelings you have. They love you! Get over it! Let them love you!

 

[Chris516]

My gripe for the PTSD Sufferer that is an online friend of mine:

I stuck by you when your (late)fiance, a U.S. Army lieutenant first broke up with with you back in 2004. Because he felt he had a 'premonition' that he would not come back alive from his second tour of duty in Iraq. You contacted me, crying in utter tears. I insisted you give me his contact info on Yahoo Messenger. I know it probably seemed like I bullied you into giving me his contact info. When I did contact him, he of course read me the 'four-letter serenade' telling me where to stick it. I finally got him to calm down. Even though I don't believe in premonitions, that wasn't the point, and I didn't tell him that. I got him to tell me what he was thinking and feeling. Once I got him to open up to me, I asked him, if he wanted to tell you, or he wanted to tell you. He chose to tell you, which I am glad he did. Sadly, His premonition came true, when he was killed in Iraq. You contacted me again, telling me about his death. You were carrying his twins at the time. His death affected me to the point that I had a bracelet made with all his military info.

After his death we communicated on occasion.

Then in 2006, you got married to your (ex)husband. I told you I had my suspicions about the guy. Even though you had gone to high school with him. Our communication never bothered him.

While you had trouble with your (ex)husband. I was having trouble with my (ex)fiance, who also has PTSD. I asked you to talk to her. Because I felt like I couldn't get through to her. While it ended up not doing much good. I thanked you for the help.

You had a daughter in 2007.

Then in 2009. your (ex)husband 'came out' as a bi-sexual. Because of it you separated from him. Which I supported your choice without question, since he in essence lied to you. Also in 2009, you met your (ex)fiance.

You blamed me in April 2012 for not being on Yahoo Messenger for nine months. I could tell you were getting sick, but you denied that you had a problem. I also told you to take a pregnancy test because of the several pregnancy signs. When you collapsed at work on June 29, 2012. Your (ex)fiance contacted me on Yahoo Messenger, telling me what happened. You were in a coma for six weeks. During that time, your (ex)fiance threatened me multiple times by saying he would never let you talk to me again. Then he confided in me, about your behavior. I told him, that I had known for ten years you were like that. But I never forsaked you for what he said was driving him berserk. After you came out of the coma, when the baby was aborted and turned out to be a toxic pregnancy. On three consecutive weeks, you said you had to cut all contact and that we would never talk again. But within days each week, you accused me of ignoring you. At one point, I told your (ex)fiance, what he said to me, about not letting you talk to me. You went ballistic on him and rightfully so. Sure, On the one hand. Your (ex)fiance's trust issues were bonafide. Because of what his (ex)wife did to him. But his fearing that I would try to travel across the U.S.-Canadian border, was financially impossible for me to do because of all the hoops I would have to jump through. With both the U.S. and Canadian governments. Then almost a year after you nearly died, you had your fourth and final(that is what you told me). Then in 2013, you n' your (ex)fiance separated.

Now you won't talk to me, even though you are still on Yahoo Messenger. I wish you would make up your mind. Do you want to communicate with me, or not. I even thought of blocking you on Yahoo Messenger. But I changed my mind. You haven't blocked me. I wonder why.

 

[Sweetpea76]

Mali creatura: Praecipio tibi in Nomine Iesu Christi exire!"

You need a squirt gun full of Holy Water to pull that off properly.