I seem to be heading for a journey in to the shame issue and I am discovering recently that shame is often at the core of my acting out ..the anger sadness addictions E.T.C. I am finding it difficult to take part in life because of feeling somehow fundamentally shameful ..its like i walk around and i think what i have done is written all over me for everyone to read. At other times i feel like i am creating a fake image of innocence to otheres while feeling dirty on the inside. it seems its not enough knowing that people dont need to know everything about me , its like its enough that i know, . We become the world we born in to and i do not know how to leave it. i feel like i do not deserve decent people and things in my life that i am a low life.