Marymickaela
Silver Member
Last week my therapist suggested a family meeting after my daughter got mad at me and I got seriously triggered. My d is a nurse, 30, and tries to mother me. Her anger was over something stupid, but I reacted to it by spending the day self-medicating on Klonopin. The next day we talked, made up and she agreed to come to a therapy session, which was today.
It was a very good session and my therapist was able to explain a lot to my daughter. It was when she flat out told my daughter "your mother has Complex PTSD" I was stunned. I had been thinking I did, but she's never been into handing out diagnoses so this has thrown me.
The other thing that happened was I was giving some examples of the trauma I experienced as a child, but also talking about being worried about my daughter as she was growing up. I said I would find her sobbing in her sleep crying "no, no, no" while holding her privates. My d gave all these explanations why that happened and assured me she had never been molested. Without thinking I blurted out "maybe it has something to do with my possibly being gang raped at age 6". Silence, I paused looked at my daughter. She was very upset, crying and crying and saying she didn't want to discuss it. I suddenly realized I had never told her about the rape. I think she was crying at what probably happened to me. I never ever intended to tell her about this and felt so bad she found out this way.
I texted my therapist later asking her if I should be concerned about my d's reaction and she texted me back that her reaction was within a normal range so not to worry.
I'm not really asking any questions I guess, but just wanted to get this out. After the session we both agreed it was good and ended the day by having lunch. I have so many emotions running through me right now. Of course I'm now researching Complex PTSD and meet the criteria.
Thanks for listening.
It was a very good session and my therapist was able to explain a lot to my daughter. It was when she flat out told my daughter "your mother has Complex PTSD" I was stunned. I had been thinking I did, but she's never been into handing out diagnoses so this has thrown me.
The other thing that happened was I was giving some examples of the trauma I experienced as a child, but also talking about being worried about my daughter as she was growing up. I said I would find her sobbing in her sleep crying "no, no, no" while holding her privates. My d gave all these explanations why that happened and assured me she had never been molested. Without thinking I blurted out "maybe it has something to do with my possibly being gang raped at age 6". Silence, I paused looked at my daughter. She was very upset, crying and crying and saying she didn't want to discuss it. I suddenly realized I had never told her about the rape. I think she was crying at what probably happened to me. I never ever intended to tell her about this and felt so bad she found out this way.
I texted my therapist later asking her if I should be concerned about my d's reaction and she texted me back that her reaction was within a normal range so not to worry.
I'm not really asking any questions I guess, but just wanted to get this out. After the session we both agreed it was good and ended the day by having lunch. I have so many emotions running through me right now. Of course I'm now researching Complex PTSD and meet the criteria.
Thanks for listening.
