Today is too much - venting

[llv88]

I woke up today with major anxiety. There are days when I open my eyes and am in a panic attack. I don't understand it, but it just happens. Today is one of those days. My inner critic is so loud today with all the self loathing and judgments. Ugh! I'm trying to be mindful, acknowledge and accept today is just a noisy day in my head. It's so easy to buy the thoughts. Not easy just to watch them pass by. I really want to go home and hide under my covers for the rest of the day. But I can't, and that makes it worse when I have to stay present and go about my day. Really gets me in a destructive mood. I suppose I will try to fit in some cardio today to expel some of this negative energy, but... no but, just do. Feeling overwhelmed, anxious, and depressed. I just hate today.

 

[EverOnly358]

@llv88,

Those days are the worst, they happen to me, too. I think you've got a really good attitude, though. I especially like the phrase "accept that today is just a noisy day in my head."

I dunno, I don't have any advice, because all the advice you're giving yourself is better than anything I can come up with! Great job! I can send you lots of sympathy though. Panic attacks are awful, so hard to deal with and I'm so sorry you're in this state today. I hope things get better later in the day, I really do. And I think it's likely, because you're doing all the right things.

Hang in there, everything changes,
D123