Leighlee87
Silver Member
Oh God, I feel all over the place on this. I terribly want one, but at the same time am terrified of touch. Its too the point where she has to ask if she is sitting too close during emdr, because she notices I immediately tense up. She has just now started sitting in a chair closer to me instead of the one on the opposite end of the room. (18 months after I started seeing her). The times I want a hug are when we are going through EMDR and child stuff comes up. I begin to get so upset I start shaking. I want her to hug me, because I want her to make it feel safe and take some of the pain away. But taking pain away also keeps me from feeling through it and learning that I'm capable of handling those emotions. Not to mention, despite craving it, I could never tolerate it without panicking even further.
At some point I think a hug or even just some type of touch in general--touching my hand or shoulder, etc would be good. Learning that not all touch is bad. And learning not to fear touch when vunerable, would be valuable. I guess it would have to be in the right context, at the right time, and when I'm ready/comfortable with it.
Goes to show why touch is healthy for some and not for others. And how even in the same client touch may only be beneficial at various points in their healing process.
At some point I think a hug or even just some type of touch in general--touching my hand or shoulder, etc would be good. Learning that not all touch is bad. And learning not to fear touch when vunerable, would be valuable. I guess it would have to be in the right context, at the right time, and when I'm ready/comfortable with it.
Goes to show why touch is healthy for some and not for others. And how even in the same client touch may only be beneficial at various points in their healing process.
