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Im wondering how to officially get confirmation on what I STRONGLY feel is Post Traumatic Stress. On 3 different layers too.
My mother had MS and died when I was 18. I still cry and get nightmares weekly. She was bed ridden for the last 4 years of her life and I had to occasionally take care of her. She couldnt close her eyes, couldnt move, had bed sores, I can write a book on how horrible it was.
I have gotten MANY panic attacks before I knew what they were. Ive been rushed to the ER over 15+ times.
Then I was abused at a job about 5-6 years ago. I have nightmares about that, I find it VERY difficult to fill out ANY application or work on my resume. I work on OTHER peoples resumes and do well but I cant do mine. My hand shakes and I sometimes get panic attacks. Again I could go on.
Then about 10 years ago I was robbed, attacked and knocked out. I lost my upper teeth and was sent to a hospital unconscience. I didnt have insurance because I was unemployed. HUGE bills and I had to file for bankruptcy. I have had over $12K in dental work. My most recent dental work was 3 years ago. I havent had sex in 4+ years I cant date effectively because I start to stutter and twitch unless I drink. I just recently after YEARS have kissed a woman. Every relationship I have with a woman is a one dater.
I am soooooooooo screwed up :( I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS! Im unemployeed AGAIN and it about to run out. And I try SOOO HARD to search for a job but I start to shake and tear up or my breathing gets very bad and I get heart palpitations. I bought a can of o2 and use that and then take xanex but then Im out of it. Ive been sleeping days and up nights.
I need someones help and I have NO IDEA what to do :(
My mother had MS and died when I was 18. I still cry and get nightmares weekly. She was bed ridden for the last 4 years of her life and I had to occasionally take care of her. She couldnt close her eyes, couldnt move, had bed sores, I can write a book on how horrible it was.
I have gotten MANY panic attacks before I knew what they were. Ive been rushed to the ER over 15+ times.
Then I was abused at a job about 5-6 years ago. I have nightmares about that, I find it VERY difficult to fill out ANY application or work on my resume. I work on OTHER peoples resumes and do well but I cant do mine. My hand shakes and I sometimes get panic attacks. Again I could go on.
Then about 10 years ago I was robbed, attacked and knocked out. I lost my upper teeth and was sent to a hospital unconscience. I didnt have insurance because I was unemployed. HUGE bills and I had to file for bankruptcy. I have had over $12K in dental work. My most recent dental work was 3 years ago. I havent had sex in 4+ years I cant date effectively because I start to stutter and twitch unless I drink. I just recently after YEARS have kissed a woman. Every relationship I have with a woman is a one dater.
I am soooooooooo screwed up :( I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS! Im unemployeed AGAIN and it about to run out. And I try SOOO HARD to search for a job but I start to shake and tear up or my breathing gets very bad and I get heart palpitations. I bought a can of o2 and use that and then take xanex but then Im out of it. Ive been sleeping days and up nights.
I need someones help and I have NO IDEA what to do :(
