I think I found my denial, for most of my working life I have spent as a support worker for the homeless, I have steered many towards counselling or seeking good solid non judgemental professional help for lots of issues, and just because I had a single bad experience with one counsellor for my own issues does not mean its always going to be that way.. I know it isn't....so I will be speaking to my doctor about arranging something, its not fair that sometimes i see people as jurors, though thanks to froggy I am now aware that sometimes it helps as good can come out of it...... but what am I feeling?
Frightened.
but I have to do this or become a hypocrite.. so 1st Dec is my appointment with the docs and have to make sure i raise this with her.