What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[PAC]

I'm tired of being on a roller coaster
I'm tired of the pervasive sense of entitlement that society seems to have
I'm tired of being insensitive and uncareing
i'm tired of being pessimistic
i'm tired of the unseen wound that never heals
i'm tired of being tired
i'm tired of being ME..........

 

[intothelight]

No fever and no major anxiety this morning. Only two days of steroid hell, so that is not bad. Hopefully that is the pattern. So two weeks on and one week off, leaves six days a month of sucky side effects. I can handle that.

A little nervous about seeing the T today. First time I have really given therapy a shot. I wasn't ready the first time around, so this time it will all be different. I am so good at being normal that to open up to someone and tell them what is really going on inside my head is extremely difficult. Especially if I am not symptomatic and stable. But probably the best time to open up is when I am stable, otherwise I don't make good sense and come across much loonier than I am most of the time.

Uhh, hard to even have those sentences make sense.

 

[Jen93]

I'm feeling better since yesterday. Hopeful. I can beat this. It can only get better- and if I ever feel worse, now I know what to do- write in my trauma diary and wait until the next day, and then I'll feel hopeful again. :) At least now I know that my depression and stuff now is probably PTSD related.

 

[712xx]

 

[Loloma]

Feel anxious. My brother is still unstable with irregular heartbeat and they found a shadow on his lung. He's having breathing problems and on a ventilator. They still don't know if his new kidney is working.

I hate the genes we've inherited, must have come from the two dollar shop.:(

 

[Froggie]

I lied, I feel like shit, rejected, replaced, abandoned and lonely. I feel like shooting someone, but the're not worth the cost of the bullet. :eek:

Standing by you ((((Loloma)))), I understand your feelings. Maybe your move will help you get a new life's start. He no longer deserves your feelings nor you. I know the investment in a couple can bring about many hurt feelings.

 

[Loloma]

(((((Froggie))))) Thank you, however my problems are minor compared to my poor little brother. He's 8 years younger than me, it sucks big time.

 

[The Albatross]

I hate the genes we've inherited, must have come from the two dollar shop.:(

Boy can I relate to that.

I feel relatively calm.
I feel grateful for a kindness from several friends yesterday.
I feel satisfied that I have the presence of mind to resume my regular schedule.
I feel glad that I could help my husband with a flat tire on a busy highway without anxiety.
I feel concerned about additional unexpected expenses, but concerned is better than my norm.
I feel physically at about 60% but each day gets a bit better.

 

[Froggie]

Probably a man!! :laugh:

That’s what we get for believing just in a Patriarchal God, forgetting our Matriarchal Goddess.

 

[The Albatross]

(((Loloma))) Very sorry to read about your brother. (Sorry, I'm having one of those blank moments... I think I was tripped up by the lung development because of my experience with my own dad.) I'm sending you warm healing intentions to share with your brother.

 

[Froggie]

Feeling a bit scared, found out yesterday at my chimo treatment that my magnesium level just is getting lower and lower every week even with the increase of supplements. So yesterday they IV fed me on magnesium for 4 hours. The outcome is affecting my muscular system, which includes my heart. Oh great, this is the pits as I went through a battery of cardio examinations and my heart is ok, but with the magnesium level going down, my good and healthy heart could get cramped up and then I have problems!

 

[Froggie]

(((((Froggie))))) Thank you, however my problems are minor compared to my poor little brother. He's 8 years younger than me, it sucks big time.

I'm putting your brother in my thoughts and will light a candle for him. Glad to hear that he is getting that transplant though, wow, after all those years on dialysis !