What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[p-no]

No. I'm totally confused. I want to be a Data who can be turned off.

 

[Privateer]

Feeling pretty good today. I feel like me again. :woot:

Just organised a medevac from a vessel and feeling rather pleased with myself.

 

[p-no]

Physically I am in a lot of pain, mainly my neck and shoulder.

I only "like" the second part!

 

[KP the nut]

Bless you Prime-no. I often click 'like' not because of the content, but to show support.

 

[Tinyflame]

Wow, something occurred to me, I have tried to have a voice or ask, or ask for help, best I know how, but to no avail. Phone calls unreturned, e-mails unanswered, calls and messages received like I never spoke. :confused: It's sort of like being silent, not a voice that can be heard, or perhaps that is too bothersome to be heard? Or maybe I am wrong to ask. At any rate, I believe this was how it started 30 years ago, it was the same, I remember. I remember I tried, and how it felt. So although now I realize just how futile it is, or even accept it is wrong to try, I see how although I tried 30 years ago it wasn't effective then, either. So I guess I could never have stopped the ptsd-in-progress. That whole knowledge makes me sad in a way now, to realize it will be like that always, I guess, but also in another way I am relieved. It wasn't just me not speaking up, I tried, maybe I didn't say the right thing, or to the wrong people, or in the wrong way.

I feel better though, also, because it takes away any expectation in trying, and it was not all my fault (re: getting ptsd, or what followed) because I did try.

 

[Tinyflame]

I do recall also, there were so many traumas embedded within other traumas. And just like now, I ('we') were unable to stop them, nor had resources nor help, even 'prayers' seemed to be of no avail. Like one of the times that I was just about in a serious car crash (I don't mean that was a trauma, just by way of analogy)- it went in slow motion, the 2 of us braced for it but there was no way to do more to avoid it. That feeling of knowledge and horror and dread, but powerlessness.

 

[JustBe]

I feel cold and dizzy and out of focus

 

[AngelaMarie]

I woke up and shaking and panicky. Absolutely scared to death! I knew it would hit eventually. UGH!
So many choices, but I have to try and remember that this isn't going to be an over night thing. So, chill Angela!!!!
I do feel relieved that the toilet is finally in and the kitchen should be back up and running tonight. At least then my house can get clean again and we can start eating normal.

 

[intothelight]

(((Junebug))) Reach out to those that hear as I will always listen.

(((Angela))) (((Movin On))) (((Hugs))) to all that need them.

Turned 52 this weekend and had a great time with my family and so many well wishes from my friends. Don't take birthdays for granted any more and am focused on not taking anything for granted. Time passes so quickly and am committed to spending each moment as best as I can.

Feeling at peace again this morning and will continue working on just making each day the best. There is peace in that thought. Not so much "have to" but "can do".

 

[KP the nut]

Turned 52 this weekend

1960 was obviously a great year :cool:

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling proud I did a community car journey. It wasn't the drive exactly, but the driving conditions. We have had so much rain here and it is still coming down. I've tried all 3 roads into our town and all of them have at best rivers running on them and floods in other sections - very scary.

I'm feeling good that I don't have to leave the house again. I plan a day on the forum and reading my Kindle by the fire. Plenty of coffee is required and maybe even a hot chocolate. I'm already in nice dry clothes as I was soaked.

I'm still in physical pain but mentally I'm feeling positive and upbeat almost as if I'm reaching a turning point in my life.

(((HUGS))) to you all.

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((Deb)))))))))))))))))
Happy Belated Birthday!! I'm so glad you had a great birthday!! :)

(((((((((((((((Junebug)))))))))))))My Dear Friend, we are listening
((((((((((((AngelaMaria)))))))))))))))Hugs and love, SisterFriend, I know how chaotic everything must seem but you can figure things out, you have the wisdom
(((((((((((((Friends here who need and want a hug))))))))))))))

I am struggling with revved up concerns and some old paranoia. My darling Daughter IL posted some beautiful photos on her FB page that only a few members of the family could view but I went into complete panic when I saw so many photos of myself online.

P-A-R-A-N-O-I-A...:(...my husband pretty much knew this would happen so he tried to bring it to my attention first with a bit of humour but I so burned into all out PANIC! :cry: Never wanting to hurt her feelings, she means the world to me but I was having major difficulty figuring out how to be okay with it and living in my terror should anyone see those. I was having flashbacks of my ex showing up at my door, leaving me notes all over, breaking into my apartment...just endless craziness hit me.

Finally, I called my Son and left a voice mail. It didn't make much sense but by the time he called back I was calmed down and could explain it. He was very sensitive to my feelings and totally understood that I was just not comfortable with my photos online. (I did not go into why, I have never been specific with him about my past just that things had been "difficult".) Later my Daughter IL text me about it and I was able to tell her how much I appreciated her having done all of that for us.

I still feel embarrassed about my reaction and it is further complicated by things that are heating up with my husband's job. I can easily combine feelings for a regular old "melt-down" so I need to be mindful.

Today I am uneasy so I will be careful with myself.