ms spock
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I grateful that I want to be here now. I want to embrace my life.
Sometimes I snap back out of dissociation, comfort eating and maladaptive daydreaming, and it is like have lots of little electric shocks. I can't work out where or what I am doing. Where I have been? And things from the past really hit me - I guess I am out of denial or blocking. I block a lot. Blocking was a very, very, very important skill for me to have as a small child, as a teenager - it meant that I survived the situation. The thing is now blocking my life now means I am missing out on all the good stuff in life, as well as the bad stuff. I am grateful for developing skills that mean that I can be more here now.
Sometimes I snap back out of dissociation, comfort eating and maladaptive daydreaming, and it is like have lots of little electric shocks. I can't work out where or what I am doing. Where I have been? And things from the past really hit me - I guess I am out of denial or blocking. I block a lot. Blocking was a very, very, very important skill for me to have as a small child, as a teenager - it meant that I survived the situation. The thing is now blocking my life now means I am missing out on all the good stuff in life, as well as the bad stuff. I am grateful for developing skills that mean that I can be more here now.