I love to take walks when I'm down and be grateful for nature. It's real and my terrible cptsd feelings are based on fiction. It makes me feel like part of something beautiful.As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It's something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn't always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier.
What am I grateful for today?
I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night's sleep in my own bed. I didn't wake up with a hangover.
I am grateful to start my day with a fresh cup of coffee and cigarettes to smoke. These are two pleasures I can count on everyday.
I have genuine, trusting friendships I can count on too, if I just chose to pick up the phone.
I have a job that does more for me than just the bills.
I am grateful that I am not the person I used to be. I can feel demolished without further destroying myself.
I am grateful for the warmth and sunshine today.
set-backs and occasional bad news are part of life. No need to worry them beforehand though :). You get through them when it's time for that! Congrats on getting married by the way!I'm thankful for my job. I started about a month ago, as a Sign Language Interpreter in Elementary School, and it was what I've wanted to do for a long time and finally "arrived". I feel like so fulfilled and so many of my skills are put to use.
Then the smug part of me is thrilled that I'm making at 21 years old (dollars per hour), what my dad could only ever make by working overtime in the peak of his career.
But back to being thankful instead of being smug, my life is genuinely going so well. I'm getting married in a few months, my job is going great, and my brother and his family are moving closer sometime next year (I've always been really close to my brother and he moved across the country about three years ago).
It's not to say all the shit disappears because it sure as hell doesn't. Some part of me in the back of my mind is preparing for inevitable mental breakdowns, I've had a few lite ones, and there's always just that shadow, of trauma, or PTSD, or whatever it is, it's always there, but at least I feel like I can manage it a little bit right now and the rest of my life is beautiful. I never thought I'd love my life as I do right now. Especially not in all the dark times in the past few years, which made me really think I could never succeed or get anywhere.
Thank you!set-backs and occasional bad news are part of life. No need to worry them beforehand though :). You get through them when it's time for that! Congrats on getting married by the way!
getting stuff for cheap is like the best lolMy home
My knees are getting better
My church and spiritual communities
Blinding sun over new snow today
The haul that l bought bunch of cosmetics over rather cheap price