What Are You Proud Of?

[jeapea]

I'm proud of my oldest son for letting me meet my granddaughter for the first time!
I'm also proud of him for taking some intitiative toward healing our relationship and not blaming his behavior entirely on me any more.
I'm proud of his wife for her understanding and for the beautiful child she gave us all to love and cherish.

A new chapter!!

 

[Marlene]

I'm proud of myself that I'm facing my past, accepting it (at least working on accepting it) and I've finally...OMG FINALLY realizing that what happened to me was not my fault, I didn't do anything to deserve it or bring it on. It was them and their fault.

 

[Mina]

I am proud of myself for playing with a large, unfamiliar dog today. We went to check him out to see if we might be interested in adopting him...he's a big, white, fluffy dog that looks like a German Shepherd/Husky mix. I didn't know him, but I still got down to his level and petted him a lot, including his chin and throat and face and near his mouth, and even let him lick my hands (which I hate, regardless of the bite...I just don't like being slobbered). My husband hasn't bothered being affirming about it, so I guess I'm tooting my own horn here. GOOD FOR ME!!!

 

[2quilt]

I am proud that I have overcome my fear of sex.
I am doing better at being assertive rather than aggressive.
I am talking bad about my intelligence less.

 

[Luthien]

I am proud of myself for finally waking up, and getting the guts to say what I am really thinking and feeling.
For a long time, I was unable to open up and be honest with myself, which kept me from being honest with others about what I was really thinking and feeling.
Recently, I have been doing some soul searching, really taking the time to look inside and learn about the person that has been hiding there. I'm finding that now that I have opened up and started talking, I can't seem to stop.

The biggest thing that I have started talking about is my feelings for my husband, and that I am unhappy, and want out of the relationship. Before I didn't feel I was able to tell him these things, but now I have, right down to the things I thought would make him seriously hurt me.

Also, I am finally sticking to my guns. I've said some of the things I refer to in the past, but would always fold when it got tough...this time I am sticking it out.

I am also saying things to a certain someone in my life that I would have been too afraid to say before, and that I am still afraid to say, but that need to be said.

I feel empowered, and more myself than I can ever remember feeling. It has been a big thing for me, and I feel proud of how far I've come.

 

[Grama-Herc]

I've just read the past several post here and I am proud of YOU GUYS. There have been some amazing strides made by some amazing people.

At first I thought this thread would fade because it was to much like the "what are you thankful for" post, but I now see there is a big difference between the tow threads.

Feels good to be proud of accomplishing something, especially when it is something hard for you to do.

Now I need to work on ME so I have something new to be proud of

 

[trapped]

I am proud of myself for making some really positive steps today- including contacting some therapists in the area to try to find a better therapist to work with, since me and the current one don't seem to be a good match; I emailed my doctor and told him some things that I had been too afraid to tell him when I saw him yesterday; I got outside, all on my own; I took a picture today that I actually really like; I attempted to eat a bit today, and even though I only got one sip of the nutritional drink down, and I intended to drink half of it, I didn't beat up on myself for not reaching my goal of drinking half, because hey- I tried, which is a lot more than I've been doing.

 

[fin]

My Name Fin ally Perhaps~

I am proud to be able to accept that I am flawed and know so very little sometimes and I also know somethings too. I am proud again to be able to stand and be amongst people that do not judge me and have helped me become more of the person I am today, a newer and better version, someone that has somehow begun to manage her ptsd.

I am proud to be able to accept that I do not always have all the answers and that I do make mistakes, and that makes me human. I am proud that I can show the compassion I have for others even though the fear in me of being judged is strong.

I am proud that today I have the people that are important to me under one roof, that I have somehow managed to keep a roof over my head, and that my son has a place to come home to. I am proud that today I can accept that it is alright to be proud of the things in life that I have accomplished and achieved, and that I am truely proud of the friends I have and have known and of the ones that I have yet to meet I am looking forward.

I am proud to be able to say I have lived as well as I have been able to despite everything that has happened to me in my life. And that despite what the internet and various practitioners online have said to me, that I know the truth of my life and am able to accept my mistakes and am better still somehow still trying to face down ptsd and look it square on despite the fact that I am a round peg. I am truely grateful and also proud that I am growing stronger somehow with each see the funnhat I am still occassionally able to see the funny side of life despute being differently abled in some ways to others.

I am proud not to have to keep checking everything I write and put out there I am trying to let go of the fear that has slowed me down for over 40 years now. I am proud to say that once I was a runner 9not world class but that doesnt matter) An dthat now perhaps rowing may be what helps me get fit again too.

I am proud to be able to say I love deeply and I am still trying to find better things within myself to love and be proud of. I am proud to say I will possibly never have all the answers I need or think I need to help me combat what I have experience of , I am proud to say that perhaps one day it wont have to be all or nothing with me. I am somehow not expecting or ever have expected that of others and so now I am trying to show myself the same care and compassion now.

I am proud to say I am a apssionate person, ad that is alright because despite some little ocd quirlyness going on in the background... it is ok to be passionate, to have passion is a good thing also.

I am proud to say I am facing ptsd daily but that it does not have me, I am sonehow managing better than I thought I ever would and I believe that is a testamnet to my courage and determination. I am prooud to say that I slept well (ish) for the first time last night in years, and that otday I feel hopefull that I will really and truely live and feel better things in time to come

I am proud to say I have good people in my life now that are helping me balance out some of the negative connotataions of my lifeexperiences. I am rpoud to say that the struggle has been worth it, that I am a caring parent that knows better than my parent did what is right about how to bring up a child. I am proud to say I am not the person I was told I was when I was being abused etc.

I am proud to say it is alright to ramble through with my writing and that if noone wants to read it that is alright also. I am proud to say I will be opefully learning more with each new day now about the forti tude that helps me stay alive, about friendship and good feelings about dreams and strength of character, about love and openeness, about feelings and hopes and trust I am proud to say I am begining to see something brighter now

I am also proud to say that when I offered my hand in friendship despite perhaps being misunderstood I was not afraid of the experience, nor afraid to sometimes say no, i am not able to be there today. I may wellface rejection, I may well face more abuse.. but I am still here and today this is good

For those that know and respect me I am proud to know you also, I have the deepest respect and the most profound admiration for you A ll also. It is not easy to care for someone hat has ptsd, it is not easy to love someone that ... is me, but the fact that you care about me today means alot to me.

Friends are like stars sometimes we may not alway see them but the love and kindness they have shown and continue to show just by being out there, is sometimes enough to guide us all maybe, it is today for me good to know strange but true, and I thankyou all of you. It isnt easy to know me and yet somehow people here are still kind enough to support me and show me the way

please continue
managing ptsd
keep going and keep laughing when you can
please keep hoping and I hope your dreams and love will strengthen you also
it is not weak to admit when we are wrong, it is not a flaw to accept the things we cannot change, and it is ok to keep writing through the storm, be chersihed and know we are all wonderful and beautiful also thankyou~laura

 

[Grama-Herc]

I am proud that I have been able to stand up for myself recently.

 

[trapped]

I am proud that I went out not once but TWICE today. The second time required some xanax, but I made it through. I met with a new person to expand my social circle a bit and try to be more socially active, even sat down at the coffee shop. The anxiety didn't kill me after all, either. And I held a conversation with her for over an hour.

I'm proud that I was able to identify a lot of thoughts going through my head on my walk over to meet her- and I wrote them down so I can talk to my therapist about them later. Some of them were the strangest things, like "if I had a dog I was walking it wouldn't be so bad, but everyone who sees me is going to wonder why I'm walking all by myself and think I'm weird" and "everyone is watching from me... even tho there's no one around, they're watching through their windows" and a few others that sort of surprised me, but I realized these are all contributing to the anxiety. It sounds simple, you'd think I'd know what I'm thinking constantly, but normally I just have the pure fear/anxiety reaction and don't get as far as figuring out what is causing the fear or anxiety.

 

[anthony]

Well done trapped... and don't worry about the paranoia aspects... all very normal. I don't honestly believe just those with PTSD think of paranoid statements, what if's and so forth, as it is quite normal for near all people to think the same stuff, PTSD or not. Younger generations now bring it out more, being they even make fun of such thoughts and no longer keep them hidden as stupid thoughts, but bring them out and talk about them even as fun and silly. All very normal.

 

[fin]

I am proud of the fact that despite screwing up I came back, and faced it all, badly but I came back.~