Chris-duck
Policy Enforcement
I have zero idea right now whether I intend this as a support thread or just for my own info thread, so yeah.
If you experience SI, what does that look like for you?
For me it is more of a "you shouldn't still be alive, you should kill yourself" which I can (obv successfully make myself STFU about) but most people describe it as a "giving up" thing.
Which is weird to me cos I tend to get it more when I'm *not* giving up, so my SI jumps in to counteract my lack of giving up or something.
It always *sounds* bad, because I know how and where I hypothetically would, but I've known that for like 20 years and haven't acted in about 10 years. And have no intention of acting, it's just really exhausting when my brain is like "no? Don't wanna live? Don't think you should? Here is a perfectly formed suicide plan I prepared back in 2010 just in case."
If you experience SI, what does that look like for you?
For me it is more of a "you shouldn't still be alive, you should kill yourself" which I can (obv successfully make myself STFU about) but most people describe it as a "giving up" thing.
Which is weird to me cos I tend to get it more when I'm *not* giving up, so my SI jumps in to counteract my lack of giving up or something.
It always *sounds* bad, because I know how and where I hypothetically would, but I've known that for like 20 years and haven't acted in about 10 years. And have no intention of acting, it's just really exhausting when my brain is like "no? Don't wanna live? Don't think you should? Here is a perfectly formed suicide plan I prepared back in 2010 just in case."
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