What I Hate The Most About Ptsd

[Tinyflame]

Dear woundedsoul, I think you are right in what you've said.

That's a good question! I guess maybe I expect more of myself than I can deliver, I don't really know.

I don't know the answer, or I can't impartially judge, myself or 'progress'.

 

[PepperAnne]

What I hate most is that I also suffer from DID along with C-PTSD, and when I get overwhelmed I emotional turn into a child in an adults body, or worse dissociate into a child alter.

 

[Tinyflame]

What I hate most about ptsd is everything about it.
Destroyed my life, and I'm watching it destroy others as they try to cope with it.
I hate it takes away any reason to live.

 

[PepperAnne]

Junebug... I am sorry you are having a hard time. I know what it is like to feel like you are ruining other peoples lives because of your PTSD. I have children that I can't be around as much as I would like to, because being with them reminds me of what my childhood was like, and I can't take that much pain at once. Seeing them being able to play without fear... it breaks my hear to know I never had that, and a part of my.. a younger child part... doesn't want them to be able to have it either... So I isolate from my children a lot more than I would like to. My husband doesn't understand... and I have tried to make me.. but you can't make the blind see. I am learning that not everyone is blind, though.

Good Luck JuneBug.. and if I may give you a {{{HUG}}}

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I hate that I am having a hard day. I am feeling stuck. I do not know what to do with myself. I want to go to McDonalds for dinner and I do not know if my husband wants to go. Getting out of here helps. This day is going by so slow. I am not tired so I cannot take a nap. I do not want to color. I do not want to watch tv. So I hang around the site posting. I am having a rotten day. It started out with feeling sad. My thoughts are stuck. I hate having ptsd on days like this. I hope tommorow is a better day.

 

[PepperAnne]

Gizmo... I am sorry you are having a hard time today. I hate when I feel stuck... and believe me.. I feel it more often than I like to admit. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you are well.

 

[freakofnurture]

Right now I hate the most that it's starting to imprison me in my own apartment. I'm so scared to go out, it's ridiculous.

 

[woundedsoul]

((Gizmo)) Sorry to hear you were having such a bad day yesterday. I hope things have improved after a good nights sleep??? Please take good care!

 

[woundedsoul]

I guess maybe I expect more of myself than I can deliver, I don't really know.

I don't know the answer, or I can't impartially judge, myself or 'progress'.

((((((Junebug)))) I am sorry you are feeling this way. Can you view your situation without criticizing or judging it or yourself? (I am learing DBT and it says we should try to do this). I thought it might help you. I am truly sorry you feel stuck...sounds like to me...i know this disability/severe, serious illnesss is very debilitating. Please treat yourself kindly when you feel this bad. One day, one hour, one minute at a time. Put any/all self-critical/self-judgmental thoughts out of your mind. Replace with, "I am doing the best I can in this moment in time." I hope that helps, a little, anyway. Thinking of you! Hope things get better. Just don't pressure yourself or judge your recovery against anyone else's. You are an individual and your pain is real. Please remember that.

 

[Red Feather]

I hate that it made me cry and have a panic attack in front of my children yesterday.

 

[PepperAnne]

I hate the feeling of being stuck inbetween realities. Part of me feels like a 6 year old and part of me feels like an adult. And both parts are fighting for control, each with their own thoughts and feelings. I hate feeling like a feak. I know on the outside I seem as though I am one person, but on the inside there is so much more. Sometimes, I feel like people can see into my soul, and know that I am circus sideshow freak. I am not paranoid or anything like that. I know that people really can't see into me, that just how I feel. That's just a part of what it is like for me dealing with my PTSD.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you, wounded soul, I never even considered it as pain until you said it.
You are so very kind.-
((((Hugs))))
I've never done that.