What I Hate The Most About Ptsd

[JustBe]

I hate having absolutely no self confidence or
sense of self worth. :(

 

[Britt.f7]

I hate that it messes up my sex life with my spouse.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Yep me too.

 

[Hiding the Pain]

I hate that no matter how hard I try to help my husband understand it will never be. He wants to be there for me, but just doesn't know how. All the things that ruin my life because of ptsd would be bearable if only I had him in my world. I mean really had him there. Not having to explain why I just jumped across the couch because he leaned in to kiss me, or having him come home to find me sleeping behind the clothes in the closet again. To not have to explain myself to the one person in my life that means everything would be the best treatment that God could bless me with. I know he feels so bad for not being able to understand. But he also gets frustrated a lot more and its killing the only connection we have. I know that one day he will get tired of it all and have to leave me, but for now I am trying to enjoy the small moments we can share.

 

[therapybankrupt]

It has ruined my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111

 

[Britt.f7]

Not having to explain why I just jumped across the couch because he leaned in to kiss me

Because my husband is a softy, he tends to feel a bit rejected when I pull away. I don't mean to and I am sure on one level he understands this. Perhaps you can explain to your husband that constantly having to explain yourself or having him question your actions when you know on some level he must get it, does not help you. That you don't need him to fix it, just be there, try to understand, but if he doesn't, then to just be compassionate. I'm sure you don't always understand it. I know I don't. Especially because I am with a good man that wouldn't purposely hurt me and yet I still do things as if he would.

I always think my husband is going to leave me. Sometimes I encourage it because I think he deserves a better life. He tells me otherwise, but the truth is, I really don't know.

I wish you compassion and strength to get through all of this.