What I Hate The Most About Ptsd

[Britt.f7]

I hate the anxiety I feel over groups of people. It doesn't even have to be a large group. I'm dreading the holidays.

I hate how it effected my sex life. There, I said it.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I hate it so much. I love the days I feel good, but they are only temporary. I hate the days it sucks. I hate everything about it. I hate going to do fun things, and I feel blank and numb and going through the motions. I want to have fun and enjoy myself. I want to feel good every day. I am where I am supposed to be for now, but it sure bites.

 

[Britt.f7]

Gizmo, I had one day this summer when my husband and I went to the grocery store. You know how that can be an adventure. Anyhow, all of a sudden it hit me that I was feeling nothing. Not numb. But what I thought an absolutely "normal" person must feel like. It felt freeing. I had never experienced that before. Everything was clear. This from a person who wonders how people just go about their day. I hope to get to that point again. It was amazing!

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

I posted before the fatigue was what I hate most. Really, it's a tie. I hate the fear, too, (and, hence, the hyper-vigilance). Generalized fear gets in the way of a lot of simple tasks. Example: I "sooooo" need to vacuum my house, but the vacuum cleaner is loud and my back has to be turned from some entryway (at least at some point during the vacuuming); so...I sweep-sweep-sweep. It's never as clean as it would be, though, than if I would just get out the damned vacuum cleaner.

 

[Hashi]

The anxiety over things that are nothing to other people but can be almost incapacitating to me.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hashi, I hear that.

 

[timetorecover]

That it is Always round the corner, waiting to rear its ugly head.
I hate that I cannot control it and the symptoms that are destroying me.
I hate feeling suicidal and angry and bitter.
I hate being a complete bitch to those around me.
I just want to be alone.

 

[Britt.f7]

What I hate most is that it has ruined my intimate life.

 

[JustBe]

(I don't even remember my intimate life!) ;)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Mine too. Now it is too late. My husband cannot anymore. We are close in holding hands, hugging, and kissing. It is very sad.

 

[aka]

I hate the inability to connected with others my own age.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I hate being overwhelmned by emotional flashbacks and being confused and mixed up. I hate it so very much.