What I Hate The Most About Ptsd

[souljah]

Haha! Good way to think of pstd as a stalker but it is like that good desciption ditto about nearest and dearest too

 

[Deleted member 16543]

I hate most the meltdowns, how it is burdensome on others and comlicates my life. I hate the intrusive thoughts, SI, and inability to not be reminded of it, at some level almost-always. I hate the mistrust, second guessing, over-feeling, over-experiencing, past re-living, unexpectedness of triggers and being knocked flat, feeling like I'm in a prison, the lack of safety, the exhaustion and the painfulness. I hate every aspect of it, actually. So I guess I hate (most) how I feel, or how it affects how I feel. And how it affects my life and also therefore others around me.

Get out of my head lol, thanks, you made my post easy ;) dido :)

 

[Privateer]

I hate the twitching.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I hate how the days pick you and you do not pick the days. I wish I could pick the days I feel bad, it would be great for my schedule.

 

[The Albatross]

I hate how my sleeping time becomes a self investigation instead of something restful.

 

[JustBe]

Is the twitching and restless legs PTSD?

 

[Deleted member 12723]

You could have what is called restless leg syndrome. My daughter has this as well as my husband. It is so bad for my daughter that she is on medication for it. It was keeping her from sleeping at night. You may want to go your doctor and get it checked out just in case. Good luck.

 

[nimkekaa]

The self doubting. Doubting if things happened the way you think they happened, doubting your innocence as a child because of what was done to you, doubting your perspective on things as what was real was so distorted. And the list goes on and on.

cutting and head banging. Wondering what its like to not be afraid all the time.

Your the first person I've meet that has said that they head bang. That is my SI act. I always wondered if anyone else did. I mostly hear of people cutting.

 

[Cerulean Synapse]

I have to tell you I what I hate about ptsd, is your doing something fun and normal you can't totally relax. I always have to be on guard. My body can never be totally relaxed and even when I am trying to relax, my muscles tighten up to tell me "you better get ready to run" I have tried a lot meditation exercises, it takes a long time for me to settle down and I hate that about ptsd. Of course, I can't take any benzo's anymore because I OD'ed.

One thing you can do after you have had a rather excitable or fun day, to rev yourself down is to do an internal meditation exercise. I do it sometimes to lull myself to sleep. It's called the chakra cleansing. And it works great for people whom have ptsd and dissociation. Trying not to give advice. I always find that it's hardest to concentrate after a weekend from my normal activities like going to the fair with a bunch of friends. And it's even harder to get to sleep that weekend because I am racked with anxiety. My stupid body. I feel your pain. Sometimes just reading a good book is the best to get yourself tired and relaxed. And sometimes I think my meds are the best for that.

Your the first person I've meet that has said that they head bang. That is my SI act. I always wondered if anyone else did. I mostly hear of people cutting.

Yeah it's my SI act as well, and some cutting as well as poking myself with needles. And scratching and picking my skin. That's another one of those. I hate it when I get into a bad flash back, it seems SI is the only thing good at the time.

 

[Zef]

I have to tell you I what I hate about ptsd, is your doing something fun and normal you can't totally relax.

Cerulean,
You changed my mind. What you said above is what I hate most about PTSD, too.

 

[JustBe]

I hate the time lost, the opportunities past over, the waste.

 

[Britt.f7]

Your the first person I've meet that has said that they head bang. That is my SI act. I always wondered if anyone else did. I mostly hear of people cutting.

I started with headbanging when I was a very young child and no one was around to witness it. I didn't start cutting until my teens. I no longer head bang.