What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[arich62]

On my mind right now, I do have a therapy session online tomorrow. But wont be able to say much more because I can't make a phone meeting private, from home during this lockdown. Too much thinking the past two months with too much time on my hands. Lots of fear and paranoia, from depression. PTSD from trying to hurt myself decades ago, triggered by movie I watched on YouTube. Just kind of on edge.

 

[Tinyflame]

Me too @megmeg .

How I can go from suitable to exist, & then add alcohol and my existence is the cause & justification of another's grief, pain & rage.

 

[Ronin]

Hi @arich62, welcome.

Can you tell your T that you are on edge, even if not the details?

Hoping you are heard out and get more resources you need to keep hanging on.

Sorry you're here, but glad you found us ;)

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@Tinyflame If they lash out at you that's on them. Not you, not the booze, and not on the fact you happened to be passing by. Just them.

 

[Tinyflame]

@Ronin , it's very hard to think it's just 'on them' if/ when they also do decent things. But being a target is soul-destroying. But still, the truth remains with all that in consideration, do they have some justification? And if they really feel that way/ booze or no booze, doesn't say much for how one is felt about. :(

Does that even make sense? :rolleyes:

 

[Carpman]

...mine is my therapy session tomorrow... I almost don't wanna go.

Coming off Twitter, it’s too much going on there, I deleted Facebook last week, it’s starting to affect me badly, some people are great on there, but some are causing havoc:(

 

[The Albatross]

I don't want this f*cking shit to ruin our summer.

 

[Rani G2]

Want to binge eat on sweets, choclate, cake, coke, Eat and selfsoothe..
I search my cupboard, fridge and the secret 4th drawyer for vegan choclate but there isn’t any. So I wander around.. it’s just a boring fruit bowl for me.

 

[Teasel]

Gratitude on my mind. For being alive, for my park, for music, for excitement over drawing, for YouTube University (trademark @Tornadic Thoughts ) and for concentration on it - helping take my mind off the nausea.

For the little cat, for Mr being so much nicer to be around, for my new 6ft long body pillow supporting me while I'm unwell, for vegan slimfast feeding me when I've not the oomph to prep meals, and for increased connection with a couple people who have their own mental health issues so don't judge me for mine.

Yeah, grateful

 

[Lionheart]

The afterlife and the fact that I choose to believe in it.

I am thinking of my family that has passed over and hope that they are all being reunited on the "other side".

 

[Tinyflame]

I was told they will not allow visits to the cemetery on Mother's Day. :( I don't always go, but this year I am off and would have, all things considered and several peoples' deaths then TOO. Really feels :( . But maybe it's good I'm not walking on the Hwy, Idk. :( though.

I feel 100 years older. :(

 

[Tinyflame]

Oops, didn't mean caps ^^. Now Idk, I think 3 hours ago they may have re-decided to open? :confused: :confused:

 

[Tinyflame]

My sister's dr pulled her off chemo, permanently. :( But if she goes in to hospice/ palliative care she can't have any visitors. :( :cry:

I think being able to call someone family, is more important to some people than others.