What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

Rosebud

MyPTSD Pro
I was thinking as 2020 draws to a close, and I have a bit of pressure on me tonight, that I would kind of without trying, repeat an experiment of sorts I did last year, see who reaches out (I did the same for my birthday). Except this year, I'm not initiating. For one thing, I'm too tired; for another, I don't care enough any more. I've been actually surprised who has, but I think I will look towards those people in the new year who thought of me, or made me enough of a priority to do so. Since- they actually have. And that speaks volumes. I am going to remove myself from people and places who do not, or where I do not belong, or really, am not part of their thoughts/ circle. Except this time, I'm going to do it from a place within myself that chooses to see or accept that I value myself enough to do that, and that I deserve that value. Which is a 1st. (Hope that makes sense).

I kind of really laughed, because a couple of us were watching a comedy the other day, and the person said, "Where's your other half?", and she answered "I'm just coming as 1/2 a person today". 🤣 And I thought, what a difference, whether it be one on one, family, friendships, churches, coworkers, clients, the spectrum of lovers to acquaintances and even institutions, that it is to be welcomed, missed or valued/ cherished, vs it's opposite, and how that feels to not belong or have value but even more importantly, how being in it requires a person to sacrifice believing in or treating themselves with any value. And someone told me once, anyone can see how you are; choose people who value it. Which is sometimes hard to learn how to accept. And they always say to try to catch people doing things right, and give the benefit of the doubt, and choose the kindest explanation if in doubt. Which is all true. But that takes no effort at all with people who genuinely care, because they make it a priority to value and their actions show it. And words and actions matching are the best litmus test.

Anyway, much love peace and return to some fun and security for all in 2021, I hope! Yippee!!! Happy new year! 🤗 "2😊21" !!!
 

Tornadic Thoughts

MyPTSD Pro
Thinking about the bright red cardinal we found next to the mushroom logs today. There was a feather stuck to the window right above the logs, and my husband remembers hearing a sound but wasn't sure where it came from. Now we know. Rest in power, sweet cardinal. Thanks for all the visits. 💔
 

Tornadic Thoughts

MyPTSD Pro
Back to normal simply won't suffice based on direct observations and experiences of what was/is allowed to pass for "normal" these days. How about onward to enriched, instead?
 

Rosebud

MyPTSD Pro
Unrelated to anything, thursday night/ early a.m. heard epic battle between the bunny, a bird and maybe cat (prints) outside my window in my back yard- horrible screaming of what died.😮😨😭. Know bird was injured but bunny finished. 😢 Horrible screaming but didn't know what could do about it? If dog was mobile there would have been no cat. What a horrible sound/ thing. ☹ 😢

Eta,
Grateful for support/ help
Worried about monday
Tired
Glad I had the guts to approach enemy and offer help, reconciliation/ relief
Why am I awake?
 
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Lionheart

Sponsor
Here is what's on my mind right now...

I am thinking: of how it takes a "tribe" to raise a child.

I think that it is easier to raise a healthy child than it is to repair "broken" adults.

And when I say "broken" I am actually thinking of re-purposing myself and becoming a "mosaic". and when I say "mosaic"

I am thinking of a new "me."

I think when I am close to the broken "pieces", I have difficulty seeing the big picture.

I think that we learn to see ourselves thru others' eyes and get fresh perspectives on our lives. We may be here for ourselves first but then it becomes about others too. We try to encourage one another. There's a lot of love and compassion here among members and

I am thinking that in the process of helping others, we are healing ourselves.
I think "we" are a special "Tribe".

Perhaps we are wounded-warriors but first and foremost "We Are Healers!!!" and we are not alone anymore. This has been my "tribe" for close to 11 years and I am so blessed and grateful for this site and all here who make it what it is... This is a place of healing.

..and that is what's on my mind.
 
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Rani G2

MyPTSD Pro
It’s hard to be disciplined with food.. eating regularly, drinking enough water, eating enough fruits and vegetables. The harder things get the harder I have to work, but It’s also a form of wanting control.
 
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