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[Ms Priss]

Thanks for the replies.

I have done a lot of research about personality disorders and the way people manipulate, etc. I understand all too well the way I played into it.I believe it was my ignorance and naivety. I have come a long way in not being a dumping ground for people's crap. Still find it hard to be assertive and it generally does not go well with aggressive people. I find it really frustrating that no matter the issue, they will find a way to put it all back on you. It leaves me feeling defenseless. I walk away now more times than not.

I no longer feel ashamed I have issues. I am accountable for them. I pretty much know what the issues are, and am searching for support.
Am looking forward to the next appt. with new counselor and am feeling somewhat hopeful,

I hate the stigma of mental illness...it is better than years ago, but it is still there.

So for today-a minute at a time-trying to put one foot in front of the other. I am trying to feel safe and know I have everything i need in this moment.
Thanks for your support!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Yasmine]

Thanks for the replies.

I have done a lot of research about personality disorders and the way people...

I hope I wasn't to overbearing in my response oh and yes ditto
if we were house fittings I would have been the mat but now I can go to the other extreme which is even more uncomfortable for me
Yes I apologise for the overly long and rambling reply I forget people here are much better informatiomed than me and please know it came from a good place. Good luck PS no I don't think your words on aa. Were in anyway belligerent if anything you were very reserved in how you told that story

 

[Ms Priss]

Am not very technologically versed so do not know how to do the inserts and such.

Yasmine, I appreciate your replies. I think for both of us it would be beneficial if we could know it is ok to speak
our minds as long as we are not hurting ourselves or anyone else. I try very hard not to attack people in my communication, but at the same time am really unsure how assertiveness works. Am tired of people always saying my perceptions are off base. They can be at times because of PTSD and such, but sometimes they are right on the money.

I called the local crisis hotline to see if there were programs I was not aware of in this area. Basically there are not. But at least I was willing to investigate and give myself credit for that.

So now since I have thought too much about all this stuff today, I am going to go clean all the fresh veggies and fruits I bought yesterday. Since it is a beautiful day outside, I will then take a walk.

 

[Yasmine]

Yes its easy to get caught up in " this stuff" enjoy your walk.

I think if we both trusted ourselves and were more assertive in doing so others wouldn't challenge our gut instinct but that's easier said than done

One of the strongest things that stuck out to me in the last few years of this horror journey is those who believe they deserve the best get it, even if the funds don't always match ( having said that I don't think that always is true where people don't have access to universal health care in America ) but its not always. easy to access free health care that is available to all here either

Ringing was just sensible and sometimes one gets lucky why not ?

Have you tried all the agencies ? They won't know who you are so why not

 

[Ms Priss]

I agree those who think they are entitled get things and not always by the most honest ways. So developing a healthy sense of entitlement would be a very good thing...trying to do that with affirmations.

 

[Yasmine]

Healthy sense of entitlement thank you for the term , I needed a way to express that
yep I have a friend in her late 60s who has this I am watching and learning from but given my situation and even the huge age gap ,I feel a bit jealous of her ,...because sh!s lovely and people go out of the way for her and she has been so kind, jealous feelings aren't like me I usually feel great for friends I love.
Anyway I needed to just confess that I think miss p
I hope you got the online resources
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