Whatcha doooooooin'?

[blackemerald1]

Just finished mowing the lawns/grass/weeds/dust :cry:
Poisoned all of the horrible things that grow in a drought :cry:
Cleaned up my back porch so there is some semblance of order out there :cry:
Sorted through two years of old filing cases and threw out almost everything because I have no idea why I kept any of it.. so that's two more boxes out of my 'spare' room. Only about 100 to go... :cry: :cry: ..sigh...

Made a cup of tea and sat down here... to see what all of you are doing :)

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Deciding if I want to soak all of me, or just my feet, in magnesium flakes and epsom salt. Feeling too mentally exhausted to do either one right now.

But then my brain shoulds on me and reminds me how grateful I need to be because I have a tub and running hot water and to get my ass in there and enjoy it while I've got it, and while my body can move well enough to get in and out of it.

The never ending brain lectures pluck my nerves some days. Other days, I'm grateful for the intuitive guidance. Go figure.

 

[Ellabella44]

I'm sitting here writing while my husband of 22 years cooks breakfast. He loves me more than I feel I deserve. I don't know if he will be allowed in the room or not but even if he is I have to answer my aprn's questions truthfully. "Are you self harming? Suicidal thoughts? " all the fun stuff. And now probably how long did this depressive / hypomania last? This full cycle has been a month. I've kept a journal with notes and dates. I don't know how long it will be before it happens again. She said it will take 4 weeks for the new med to kick in. Hopefully its the right one.

I hate that at times when stuff gets worse for me I loose my trust that he will still be there when I get to a period when I'm back to myself. Hope everyone has a good day.

 

[VioletButterfly]

@Ellabella44 - I've been reading along and thought you might like a few of these if that's okay... (((((((Ella))))))) ?

 

[VioletButterfly]

grab and growl leftovers

Ha ha... I call those meals "dab-a-dinners" as in a dab of this and a dab of that.... ?

 

[MrMoonlight]

Sittin' here watching the end of a Suns vs. Pelicans game, still giggling from when the announcer said: "and here comes the pelicans charging down the court". Gave me a funny visual of a bunch of pelicans waddling down the hardwood.

I'm going to have a second cup of coffee and take a really long grounded, present, slow in the moment shower.

 

[Ronin]

Contemplating a conflict zone of my childhood totes wins over Bs normal life slash stalking normal idiocy.

Or, that I should take seriously the buddy that went like, Id tranq you, just sleep it off.

Next time I hole up in Congo and I ain't coming out. :shifty:

Note to self, airports don't exist. Just fuhget about it.

 

[Ellabella44]

I slept all night. Now before you cuss me out about it, I have not slept a full night the past 3 weeks. I'm feeling what I'd call good. Balanced. Like myself for another day. This is the contentment of a perfect temperature bath with no interruptions from absolutely anything else. Is it crazy I feel the urge to yell "I'm back b*tches" Yell at my recent storm of other symptoms I suspect are bipolar and scream "IS THAT ALL YOU'VE GOT" try harder next time.

 

[Ronin]

I think that's pretty awesome, Ellabella, and cheers. :tup:

I dont tend to yell unless there's danger, but i'd totally do excited hoarse loud whisper of Shes back, bitches. :D

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

Lazing about in my hostel room in Santiago C. I finished my hike, and now I feel shitty. Ugh, I don't want to go home, with all my mundane problems there. Maybe I can watch Harry Potter in Spanish on TV.

 

[MrMoonlight]

I'm sitting in bed in a tracksuit and seahawks hat...thinking I need food and a shower. I'll be watching Seattle play in a little while.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Trying to decide if I want to put a whole f'n load of laundry on (so I can stay warm) to venture outside or not.

Feeling tired and achy from yesterday's food drive adventure, then returning home and clearing/cleaning out cabinet spaces and such.

I think maybe I'll just stay inside and listen to some Elton John, specifically, "The Bitch is Back". ? lol

Glad you're rested and feeling better, @Ellabella44 ! Such a priceless feeling.

As I typed this post out, I was visited by multiple birds right outside my window. Grateful for moments when nature comes to me so I don't have to go out to it, especially on cold days that hurt my body. Yay!