Who Is The Killer

[Aleks]

I have cptsd. I had it my entire life from sexual abuse and home violence I experienced at home. It's psychotic so I can't distinguish reality from imagination when I'm on lsd. My parents were psychopaths. My father was in jakuza and planned the career of prostitute for me. When I were 13 he drugged me up with lsd. I went drugged up to my grandfather and told him about the abuse my parents put me trough. He got a heart attack. I run over to my father to tell him that grandpa is dying of a heart attack because I told him truth. My father was not amused he said that now he s gonna need to kill him. My mother was a witness of that conversation. She said that she's going to take care of this and went to my grandfather room. They never called ambulance and I were drugged up to think I'm 8 y old. I didn't even know where police is. Next thing I remember is being drugged up again killing my grandfather with a pillow and my mother waiting outside his doors. I killed him a few times on lsd but I think he was already dead when I was killing him. Then my parents decided to make a victim out of me since they knew I'm mentally ill. They drugged me up and forced to have sex with the dead body saying that such clients I'm going to have in a brothel. I tried several antipsychotic medication hoping that they would erase the lsd memories and I would get to the truth of who the killer really is. So my question is who is the killer?

 

[SeanCharles]

Hi Aleks! Welcome to the forum! Quite a post you have here.

 

[Fadeaway]

No one can answer that. This is something you need to work out with a therapist.

 

[One step at a time]

I'm sorry you have lived through the kinds of things that bring people here, but I am glad you found this community.
No-one can tell you who killed your grandfather, but you can find help and advice for living with the aftermath of so much pain.
I hope you find what you need, here.

 

[Aleks]

Hi Aleks! Welcome to the forum! Quite a post you have here.

Thx it took me two years of psychotherapy and antipsychotic meds to finally post it. I could really use criminal detective hypnotist to solve this riddle

 

[Jmichelle]

CPTSD is not real. Chill, you have basic PTSD like the rest of us.

 

[Muttly]

Hi, I am so sorry you went through so many horrible experiences. It seems like, no matter what you did, ultimately it was your parents who were the real killer. You were a child and having drugs forced upon you.

CPTSD is not real. Chill, you have basic PTSD like the rest of us.

Ummm, I imagine your intent is to reassure, but I'm worried this may not be read as helpful. The original post was more about the experiences that Aleks endured, not a debate or concern about diagnosis.

 

[joeylittle]

CPTSD is not real.

CPTSD is not currently a diagnosis in the DSM, but it is soon to be a diagnosis in the ICD (11); so, I'd call it 'not official', before calling it not real.

I could really use criminal detective hypnotist to solve this riddle

Well, we don't have those here. I'd suggest you have this conversation with your therapist, if you haven't yet. What is their advice, regarding your memory and your trauma treatment?

 

[Aleks]

I had a therapy for year and now I'm just basic antipsychotic medication cause I were wondering to the city thinking I'm 8 y old living in sub reality they think my mother is the killer since they didn't call the ambulance but I don't know. This is a work of the psychopath

 

[Sunshineturtle]

CPTSD is not real. Chill, you have basic PTSD like the rest of us.

Why would you say cptsd is not real?
Not that it matters. Work this out in therapy. Stay strong.