Freedomfighter
Diamond Member
I think a lot of people are scared to help, but many have lives that might mirror yours without admitting to it. I have learned that almost all of the people I work with are in some kind of totally destructive relationships at their homes, relationships that I would have walked out of for sure. But those people will pretend every day they are happy, attempt to paint me as a negative person because I recognize they are living a lie.
I do not know what to do with liars, they are just so far removed from the normal human realm I don't want to bother talking to them. What the heck good is it if we get support from someone that lies anyways? That would not be real support.
I only accept support from someone that truly cares, that shows that I can rely on that person, that shows that even if my condition interferes that this person will stand by me no matter what. That is something a liar will never be able to give me.
It is wonderful to recognize all of these things and even though I am fighting a very nasty trigger right now, the beautiful recognitions are breaking through, making me see the light within all of the abuse.
It is like my brain is in a dark place but the light is shining in and I am clamming to get out of the darkness into the light. My understanding is getting much better though of what true support is, what true caring is, what real help is. That is what I like, when I learn that. The predators can not take that away from me.
And now that I read this it makes me euphorically happy.
So, on that note Turalu
