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[cherryblossom]

What are they putting down as they scribble away anyway??......... (don't forget to get milk on the way home:) )

It's so true. I saw a Doc from Occupational health on Wednesday. Although he wrote at the desk in front of me, his writing was so small, only a mouse could read it (or a scientist with a microscope). If he's writing about me, I want to know about it!

 

[Iam]

I know CB! And I am about to find out....I am getting a whole years worth of my T's notes next week from him! Should be interesting bedtime reading! It will probably read like a poorly written who done it and cause me nightmares LOL!

 

[Jawn]

Iam, a while back my wife needed to get all the notes from her primary care doc before going to see her T for the first time. I read those notes and some of it made sense and other things were in medical jargon or shorthand that I just went "huh?" Your T's notes will probably be similar in nature. Some notes about what you were working on at the time of the notes, what's working, what's not working, etc. If it was like reading 10 yrs of my wife's notes, it was actually pretty boring. ;-)

Jawn

 

[Iam]

I have a feeling I won't even be able to read his handwriting Jawn ;o) Even so, if I can, it will be interesting to see what he has written. Hopefully I will find only what he has been up front and told me. Curious.....;o)

 

[Tinyflame]

At work people (clients) used to get upset seeing "SOB" in their paperwork
(meant "short of breath")
:)

 

[Artista]

I Get your tendency to freak a bit.... and don't we when we don't know just what to expect. This is new for you in your therapy. I think you are tackling things amazingly and steadfast. soooooooo PROUD of you. You really are doing well and trusting this and its course is just part of trusting yourself... you will know if it gets uncomfy or you will speak up i think if you question any of it. Good Luck. Hope to hear more as this progresses!!!! : )

 

[Iam]

LOL Junebug!!!!

Artista....thank you so much I really do appreciate the encouragement ;o) Yes, the unknown is scary. Even for "normal" people I think! Although it is funny, I am very willing in many circumstances to jump into the unknown with both feet and see what happens. I must say though that it is usually a "calculated" risk. Even with the EMDR...I have been doing lots of researching!

 

[changed]

Good Luck Iam! Its not easy but I believe in you. You are a fantastic and strong person, even if you dont feel this, trust me you are!! Your replies to my posts have helped me imensely, im here because of your strength, so be good to yourself and chanel your strength into you!

Love and best wishes xx

 

[Iam]

Changed....you are so sweet to say that. I am glad if my comments have helped you ;o) I do believe I can be strong at times, at other times......ah well, we all have those times don't we? I will be glad when we get into this EMDR stuff and am reallly hopeful that it will help in conjunction with my other therapy. I am also aware that I will probably become more symptomatic so need to prepare for that and pray that no other triggering "event" happen at the same time. GAH, that is scary! The good thing is that I will be still be seeing my regular therapist while doing EMDR with the psychologist so will have two appts each week during this phase. I am very thankful for that as I suspect I will be needing the extra care. I am so very lucky to have the resources and opportunity to have both!

 

[Iam]

I met with the EMDR specialist for the first time today. It went very well. I really like her. She had already read my timeline and had spoken with my regular T so had a good handle on my background. I think all the work Dale and I have done over the last year was very helpful in me being able to open up with her too. We did the typical "What are you expecting to get out of this, what are your issues" thing. She did a grounding exercise with me and a "container" EMDR excercise. She had me visualize a container that I could put my distressing thoughts and feelings in. It had to be able to completely contain all of them and have a system in which I could take out only what I wanted to take out, when I wanted to. I visualized a 4 drawer oak filing cabinet with a nice strong lock LOL! Then she asked me how does it feel to have this container. I told her good. Then she did the whole thing doing the EMDR 3 times each time adding more detail. I am to practice these exercises several times a day. I did feel strangely calm driving back to meet my regular T. That session went well too. So now we start and I am hopeful. She felt that doing a session with my regular T after EMDR would be way too much, that I need time to decompress and ground myself. Since my Tuesday session usually hits me on Thursday if I am going to have anxiety about it we decided to meet on Fridays and I'd keep seeing my regular T on Tuesdays. Boy is this going to be intense!

 

[James B.]

Sounds good Iam. :-) Am happy for you. Good luck with everything!

 

[seedling]

Sounds like you found someone who knows what they are doing. Your whole post sounds really positive. I like the lock :)