Sufferer Hello. I Am New Here. I Think I Need Some Help And Support. I Am A Mess.

[BethanyG]

• Im having problems with my ptsd I think. I don't have much well any support at home and I don't have family of friends so it's just me to hold myself together but I'm falling apart. Today and yesterday I've just had these uncontrolable crying spells. The worst kind. Like sobbing. I can't work. And I have to be okay for my family my husband and my kids. My husband isn't the supportive type I guess. We'll Tbh he's sum what of an abusive person. I'm not aloud to show emotion like I need to. Unless I'm alone. And I'm a mess. I thought it was getting better and I was getting stronger but it's gotten alot worse for me and harder. I'm a mess. I don't know What i need. A friend Someone to talk to. Someone who understands maybe and can tell me what's next. I need alot of help. And I'm all alone in this. And all I can think about is my nightmares im about to have I'm scared to go to sleep. Someone help

 

[hodge]

Welcome, Bethany.

I cried all the time when PTSD hit me, too. Therapy can really help.

 

[BethanyG]

Welcome, Bethany.

I cried all the time when PTSD hit me, too. Therapy can really help.

I do therapy. I'm not sure why lately it's been this way. I think it's my triggers but not sure . I'm just scared And feel so alone. I'm afraid one day I'll just have to really and this because even in my sleep my nightmares haunt me And I can't escape anywhere. And nobody in my family cares or even understands. I'm just alone

 

[hodge]

Have you tried Prazosin for nightmares? It's a high blood pressure med, but it really helps so that you don't remember them as you wake up.

 

[BethanyG]

Welcome, Bethany.

I cried all the time when PTSD hit me, too. Therapy can really help.

I am so glad I found this site.
Its been alot of years with my ptsd and then the second tima about 7 months Now.

 

[Marta]

I am new also. And can relate to the tearing up thing. I am just in the ugly middle of it. I am just sitting here at 1AM and just want to read things up and feel good to think that there is someone on the other side connected at the same time. If only for that, think, right now you are not alone.

 

[BethanyG]

Have you tried Prazosin for nightmares? It's a high blood pressure
med, but it really helps so that you don...

No Im on Serequil Tegretol lorazepam and Zoloft. It helps alot. But this new thing Has me crying and panicking. I just got over one. Maybe a trigger.

 

[BethanyG]

I am new also. And can relate to the tearing up thing. I am just in the ugly middle of it. I am just sitt...

Thank you. I'm so alone In my regular life I thought again about the only way out to and my life. And I came to far way to far for that. It just feels inevitable.

 

[Friday]

We'll Tbh he's sum what of an abusive person. I

Welcome to the forums :)

If your husband's abusive, things are unlikely to get better. Adding new trauma tends to make PTSD rather worse.

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

Welcome to the forum.

 

[BethanyG]

So another hard day. My husbands cousin was tired 3 times for drugs from his job and I thought I saw him driving a company truck of the same one of the people that attacked me. Well I asked my husband alot of times to ask and see if his cousin was working for them. So I could find them. And he never did. He didn t even tell his cousin what happend probably because it was he who kichad me out that night and he doesn't wanna look bad himself. I told him I won't ask again. So today he gets a call from his cousin wanting him to bring him some food for lunch cause he's up the street but can't leave. Turns out there right by my kids school doing some work. I'm mess. Those guys threatend me and my kids with there life. My daughter who is only 6 yrs old. They walk to school and home from school because we are close. My husband will have my car to go to work I can only hope there gone by then. Its shit like this I live with and my husband watches the whole thing. Me crying on the bed scared shaking. He doesn't care. Idk what to do. How do I over come this I'm sick of it. I'm tired I'm scared. What do i do?

 

[Silver.]

It sounds to me like you need to have a serious talk with your husband about your needs. You need to set (and enforce) boundaries of what is acceptable behaviour and what isn't.
I would also propose couples counselling so he can get a better idea of what it is you go through and you two can learn to communicate in a healthy, encouraging, nourishing, and understanding manner.
Otherwise, it seems your marriage is the cause for a lot of what you are going through and if you don't work on the marriage, there isn't much point to being in it.

Have you seen this explanation for PTSD stress? So many of us have used this to help explain what we go through to our s/o's. Perhaps it could be of help:
https://www.myptsd.com/threads/the-ptsd-cup-explanation.13737/