Conversations In My Head

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I dissacociate. I always have in certain times and honestly I assumed everyone did until recently. Lately I've been more fragmented than usual and it's been interfering with my life. Part of this newer experience has been conversations in my head.

Not auditory hallucinations, but people in my head that I talk to and can ask questions or offer answers. When it first started they were annoying. The talks went in circles and I would find myself in them rather than what I was doing in "real life." However, since I've gotten meds to help they are now enjoyable.

I played chess this weekend and was able to choose my move through group decision. Now, I've never been told I have DID and I don't believe that I experienced anything traumatic enough to cause that. However, my bf referred to my conversations as personalities yesterday and it kind of threw me.

I referenced a guy and my bf said, "one of these personalities is a dude?" (He wasn't being mean)

These people I talk with don't seem to want to control me and my actions. I feel like everything is supporting my life choices and wanting me to be in control.

DID effects a very small percentage of the population and it hasn't been mentioned to me. Does anyone else have Conversations like this? If so, can I have some insight?

 

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From what i understand, DID is at the far end of the dissociation spectrum. Along the way there are various dissociative disorders.

Many people here experience 'parts' that have varying degrees of individuality, without them having DID.

DID is difficult to diagnose, but i believe a key feature that must be present is dissociative amnesia.

 

[Crow]

My T considers this a normal part of cptsd. Fragmented parts, pre-integration, voicing their opinions. She does not consider me DID to the point of alt personalities. And the voices are thinning as I become more fully whole. So I stopped treating it as a problem and embracing the extra input as a resource and support. Made the world of difference.

 

[screen-name]

From what i understand, DID is at the far end of the dissociation spectrum. Along the way there are vario...

I have dissociative amnesia but it's not the only way I dissacociate. When I lose longer periods of time I seem to just sit in one spot and that can be longer than an hour. Other times I will lose a few moments of what I am doing.

I am trying to embrace the extra ideas that I get from them. It's just really odd. They seemed to pop up out of no where.

 

[Deleted member 37868]

I dissacociate. I always have in certain times and honestly I assumed everyone did until recently....

Hey!
I do this, and I always have. I had conversations in my head since before any trauma in my life, I know for sure it's just a part of me, and you also seem to be aware that you do this consciously. There's a lot of things that get termed mental disorders or part of them that are not, introverts are considered ill or wrong by most of society. You know best what is a problem and what is not. I feel bad for all the people who don't have the rich internal life I do. Society decides what illness is, and it changes all the time, just look at the f*cking DSM! Clearly if you're on here, there are things in your life that are just not good either past or present, but you don't have to believe everything you're told by doctors, psychiatry is a grey area, no one really knows anything for sure.

 

[BlueOrange]

Everybody dissociates, it's a very important part of the mind's ability to handle emergencies. Similarly, the experience of an 'internal conversation between personalities' is normal.

I'm diagnosed with DID because my personalities went to war with each other and kept secrets from each other. If you're able to take care of yourself, participate in society and in work/study, then you can't be diagnosed with anything. It's only when you start missing out on those things that there's a problem to be fixed.

 

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I feel bad for not coming back to this thread sooner. I've been having some real depression issues lately too. it'll all even out.

However, thank everyone for making me feel more "normal." Me and what I refer to as "the conversations" are figuring out how this works. It's still weird but at the same time kind of enjoyable to not feel like I'm doing everything alone. I am starting to trust my own decisions more because we can all agree of stuff. That some how makes me feel more confident lol

 

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Omg thanks for posting this! Since I experienced nothing but repeated trauma this has been happening to me I swear! I feel like I'm having conversation with the people I wanna talk to in my head all the time about everything, including what happened to me. sometimes I catch myself reacting. It's crazy how this happens! I can't concentrate on anything for seconds without losing attention or going off to daydreaming