Yesterday I had the kind of EMDR session that wrung me out completely. I was already in rugged shape, my brain was working toward the next session. Afterward I just drove kind of aimlessly in a circle, eventually ending up at home, not even really knowing what to do.
I have felt brain fog for the last couple of weeks. Tax time is triggering me, because of issues related to divorce finances last year when I had to pay out about 100, 000 to my abusive ex.
It's morning, I have been at work for two and a half hours, been getting things done, and have kind of spaced out, not a full dissociation which would be easier. I feel uneasy, uncomfortable in my own skin. My stomach is sick. I don't know what to do for myself other than post here, and I have little understanding of how to push myself through normal activities.
I find that the simple act of making and feeding myself a real meal is mostly beyond my level of ability. I am withdrawn, and trying to fake my way through social interactions is excruciating. I have to work with people every day, so not forcing it is not a matter of choice. My house isn't awful, but it needs cleaned, and I am moving through those tasks at a snail's pace. But clutter and dirty floors depress me.
Right now I want to close my door, crawl under my desk, and sleep.I am self-protecting and isolating now.
If anyone has any helpful suggestions please respond. Or just some empathy. I feel pathetic and hopeless. Even if it's something obvious or well known throw it to me. My brain is overwhelmed and I'm struggling.
I have felt brain fog for the last couple of weeks. Tax time is triggering me, because of issues related to divorce finances last year when I had to pay out about 100, 000 to my abusive ex.
It's morning, I have been at work for two and a half hours, been getting things done, and have kind of spaced out, not a full dissociation which would be easier. I feel uneasy, uncomfortable in my own skin. My stomach is sick. I don't know what to do for myself other than post here, and I have little understanding of how to push myself through normal activities.
I find that the simple act of making and feeding myself a real meal is mostly beyond my level of ability. I am withdrawn, and trying to fake my way through social interactions is excruciating. I have to work with people every day, so not forcing it is not a matter of choice. My house isn't awful, but it needs cleaned, and I am moving through those tasks at a snail's pace. But clutter and dirty floors depress me.
Right now I want to close my door, crawl under my desk, and sleep.I am self-protecting and isolating now.
If anyone has any helpful suggestions please respond. Or just some empathy. I feel pathetic and hopeless. Even if it's something obvious or well known throw it to me. My brain is overwhelmed and I'm struggling.
