Hate, And The Damage It Does

[JarHed]

I've been yelling at the TV for years - I don't think it can hear.

Better to yell at the clouds, they can't talk back, well except sometimes o_O , and then the neighbors think you're nuts and leave you alone. ( I wish :ROFLMAO: )

I think at some point we all do the 'imitation of life' thing as Sarg says. With all the drink, drugs and such we're the lucky ones. We're still alive and kickin'. I could probably buy a Bentley with all the money I spent on drugs. It's funny though, every now and then I catch a whiff of smoke on the air from someone in a car or around me and I think fondly of it. Just not interested in that stuff or any stuff anymore. There was a time when I couldn't live without it. Amazing how things change.

I just take each day as it comes; some are good, some are crappy and some are OK. And of course, some just suck the big one. Still tomorrow's another chance to roll the dice so to speak.

 

[BaMuoiBa]

There was a time when I couldn't live without it. Amazing how things change.

Right again Jar! What is amazing is how WE change and by default all those things change as well.(y)

Ba

 

[Sarg]

I could probably buy a Bentley with all the money I spent on drugs.

I've pondered what I had invested in ethanol. Leer jet, perhaps?

Sarg

 

[Jimmy1]

What you guys have to remember is that ANGER and Aggression was drilled into us in boot camp, and for me, as I progressed through the ranks it became a way of life, if I did not like something someone did at work I yelled at them and got angry, I did not sit down and talk with them, that is what the LT's did, I gave them a real arse tearing.
Even today I get wound up real easy, my pulse races, and I turn back into Warrant Officer Jimmy.

Anger and aggression is also used for our training, think bayonets, think obstacles you could not get over.

My older kids and brothers and sisters did not talk to me for years because I used to tear shreds of them.

No wonder we look for answers in the bottom of bottles.

 

[vikingr12]

Good post, Jimmy. Anger is a good thing when under control. But that is so hard to do when there is so much to purge. And it is difficult to turn off, even recognize.

 

[Jimmy1]

Don't worry mate, I still get angry without even knowing it, my tone of voice and volume changes, and if my lovely wife is not around, I can sometimes be past the point of no return without knowing it.

 

[JarHed]

Don't worry mate, I still get angry without even knowing it, my tone of voice and volume changes, and if my lovely wife is not around, I can sometimes be past the point of no return without knowing it.

It's a tough thing. One of the toughest I think we all have to deal with. It's just such a natural thing to fall right into. Even when you're aware of it and tryin' to work on it, it can take you by surprise.

 

[Sarg]

Explains the hole in the garage door.

sarg

 

[Fargo1]

Interestingly, I don't tend to yell when I'm angry. My voice goes monotone. I don't even notice it. But my ex and her daughter sure did...

 

[Jimmy1]

When I did the anger management course we discussed and tried to put into practice recognising the emotion as it was coming into play and deal with it accordingly. For instance, if someone got in your face and started shoving you, then it was alright to respond with pure anger, whereas when one of my children did not was their plate well enough, it did not deserve the same face ripping. I still struggle with delineating between extreme anger and just being a little upset sometimes.

I suppose it all comes down to one thing and it's what this beast is named after. Post Traumatic STRESS Disorder.
If our bucket is full, then our responses will be different altogether.

 

[Sarg]

I think age wears off the sharp edges off anger. But in my case the rage stills boils over before I even know it. However, I have mastered hitting inanimate objects. They usually aren't very expensive and don't hit back. I think bitterness does me far more ill than does anger. I still carry it, stupidly, like some kind of silly badge.

It's the source of all the acid that eats away our emotions and a direct result of jamming a lid on the beast and letting him have at everything inside.

Sarg

 

[JarHed]

It's the source of all the acid that eats away our emotions and a direct result of jamming a lid on the beast and letting him have at everything inside.

Hate and bitterness, tough things to try to overcome or even live with. It's hard when you've had those two for so long to even think you can live without either of them. It's a hard habit to break. I still wrestle with them every single day. Some days I do OK, and others are just awful.

I always try to remember my father. He was an angry and bitter person as long as I can remember. I don't want to end up like him. Guess that's what keeps me working at trying not to be angry and bitter all the time. It's the opposite of what and where I want to be.