^^ So true lol..
Just wondering but are you in therapy?? If not, you might find it a good time to start. I can promise you they will help normalize your child's behavior and let you know what is normal. Hang in there!
Maybe ask for a little additional support while you are trying to work through this. It isn’t uncommon to have things that set you off and make parenting complicated. I live it too. My son is in puberty and it is difficult for me to talk about sex with him. Especially when he asks me more personal questions about my life. I of course lie and tell him that first times are beautiful and something to be shared with someone you love. It’s hard!!! I have spent a lot of time talking with him about respecting your partner. My son seems very much in to girls but I guess that could change so I am careful to make gender benign and just talk about respect and love and caring and what NO means. Lol. In some stretch, I can tell you it has been therapeutic for me to walk that journey with him and I hope you are able to settle in to that as well. It was almost like reparenting myself. I gave him what I didn’t have and it has been beautiful. However, there were bumps along the way. His first erection was freaky! He came running in with no clothes on screaming “my pee pee is bwoken” literally jumped out of my skin but then I was able to find some humor later and laughed about the experience. Then we moved on to the showers that take an hour... ugh... that was tough bc he basically asked me about masterbation. I wanted to crawl out of my skin again... BUT, in the end I have this great kid that talks to me about stuff without fear of retribution or that he isn’t normal and he clearly seems to have a much better understanding of sex, love, and all the healthy things than I had. That in itself makes me feel good and worthy.
