Sufferer Ptsd symptoms come back after decades of calm

[AnnC]

Hey everyone. I just found this forum and it seems to be just what i need now. I older and have been mastering ptsd symptoms for years but one conversation with a childhood perpetrator has recreated symptoms. baffles me. I hate ptsd.

 

[Sweetleaf]

Welcome - this place is definitely a great resource to have IMO.

but one conversation with a childhood perpetrator has recreated symptoms. baffles me.

That's not too surprising, although I'm really sorry that it happened to you. My old therapist read an email that my abuser sent to her. She read it to me, and ever since then it's like my PTSD upgraded to PTSD 2.0, metaphorically speaking. lol. I have panic disorder now, too.

I really feel like exposure to past abusers/perpetrators etc., even indirect exposure, can seriously stir shit up. I feel like it's wise to just avoid that stuff, though yeah, going into it, I did not think that it would have that effect on me. I did not think it would utterly demolish all feelings of safety I had developed over time. I did not think that it would both erode my progress, and make everything worse.

Do you have any kind of support structures in person? A therapist, etc?

I hate ptsd.

Hey me too lol.

 

[Teasel]

Welcome AnnC :-)

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome!