I’m having a really bad night/week and I feel so alone.
For the 3rd time this week my PTSD has been thrown in my face.
1st I was made to leave a get together at a neighbors because someone thought I looked like I may break down! It was a miracle I was there in the first place and I would have left if I was struggling. I was actually enjoying myself for once. I feel guilty even saying it but it’s true.
2nd I have short term memory issues so I ask for texts or email so I can go back and reference. Someone close to me lied and used this as a weapon. The text confirmed it. Broke my heart.
3rd I was told people were going to surprise me tonight for my birthday (someone told me so I could prepare and not freak out). I’ve been preparing mentally all day and forced a shower and was looking forward to it but I guess they changed their minds.
I know I’m being so selfish and having a pity party. I just feel alone and sad.
For the 3rd time this week my PTSD has been thrown in my face.
1st I was made to leave a get together at a neighbors because someone thought I looked like I may break down! It was a miracle I was there in the first place and I would have left if I was struggling. I was actually enjoying myself for once. I feel guilty even saying it but it’s true.
2nd I have short term memory issues so I ask for texts or email so I can go back and reference. Someone close to me lied and used this as a weapon. The text confirmed it. Broke my heart.
3rd I was told people were going to surprise me tonight for my birthday (someone told me so I could prepare and not freak out). I’ve been preparing mentally all day and forced a shower and was looking forward to it but I guess they changed their minds.
I know I’m being so selfish and having a pity party. I just feel alone and sad.