I’ve never really had high expectations on the Christian God. Anyone who would allow their own son to be tortured to death? Wipes whole cities off the map? Floods the world? Clearly isn’t concerned with individual outcomes, and has wildly different priorities than I do. Maybe best typified by the idea that it’s “better” to give your own children to an angry mob to be raped, than to disturb a strangers meal?
Nope. The Christian God & I have some very fundamental differences of opinion.
I’ve also never really understood the NewTestament tendency of attempting to singularise/divide Y into a single aspect. There are no Fates, no Furies, no Muses, no gods of War or Hearth & Home, no protectors of children, or the Hunt, Crops, Seasons... none of the hundreds of aspects to seek out or pray to or devote one’s self -or this moment in time- to. The ChristianGod is supposed to contain ALL of these aspects, every facet, in one visage. But some people seem to think they can pick and choose only a single aspect -Love- and ignore all the rest? I don’t grok. Love without fear, or sorrow, or jealousy, or pain? Not even Aphrodite & Juno managed that, in romantic and devoted love. A mother’s wrath, and the willingness to burn the world, came part and parcel with loving her children; just one example of the complexity, there. To step sideways for a moment... Athena, lover of wisdom? Was also a warrior, because with knowledge came the need to act / to do something about what she learned. Even gods who were devoted to a single facet -love, or any other- were fully formed multidimensional creatures, encompassing the full depth and range of their chosen focus. But the Christian God is supposed to contain every facet in existence, yet remain 2 dimensional? And moreover, be pinholed into only the happy moments of love, none of the harder ones? That makes no sense to me, unless anyone who believes that, has never actually read any of his books. A loving god? Perhaps. But also a vengeful god. And every other thing, god.
My best understanding of Y, is that one is supposed to get angry. To fight to make their life as best they can for themselves and theirs. Which is the cost of agency; accountability. Our lives are what we make of them. What we do when the hurricanes, cancer, friends, enemies, armies, good fortune, bad fortune, et al, come into them. We don’t choose our troubles or our triumphs, we choose how we respond to them. See something we don’t like? Step up and change it. Or blame others. Or sit on the sidelines. Or whatever.