What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[ladee]

Realizing that having a Fibro flare is a lot like childbirth. It hurts like hell during it, but as soon as it leaves I forget about how bad it hurts. Until the next time.

 

[Lionheart]

I am reconsidering herbal therapy.

 

[Mee]

Realizing that having a Fibro flare is a lot like childbirth. It hurts like hell during it, but as soon as it leaves I forget about how bad it hurts. Until the next time.

So you get complete absences of pain? I have a referral to a fibro/ ME clinic soon . I am never actually pain free but I have some other stuff going on so that might confuse things. Monday I could barely move and just slept to heal. Did the best job I think.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Thinking about a lot of things, one being a kind of meltdown I had yesterday at the Home Store where I'd gone to cheer myself up by looking at holiday decorations. Hmmm, my little engine that could was left reeling and I was left asking God if I could come home NOW.

Realizing some truths like the Stress Cup analogy is real, that I have a lot on me, that I don't really understand a lot of what's going on but that I do understand more than I did, that healing takes time and work, that there will be challenging days and better days, etc.... So, there's a Dumbo ride of thoughts flying around north of my eyes most days for now.

Sigh....

 

[VioletButterfly]

Also, @Lionheart777, I'm thinking about you. Are you not going for your testing/procedure today? If so, sending support, prayers, and well wishes! Let us know how it goes. ?

 

[ladee]

@Mee, I do have times of absence of Fibro pain. I have other pain issues, but Fibro kicks my ass. The relentless pain, the brain fog, the exhaustion. And when it lifts, I can deal with the other pain. I do not feel human when I am in a Fibro flare.

 

[Mee]

@Mee, I do have times of absence of Fibro pain. I have other pain issues, but Fibro kicks my ass. The relentless pain, the brain fog, the exhaustion. And when it lifts, I can deal with the other pain. I do not feel human when I am in a Fibro flare.

Thanks. This helps. Today I woke up, ran an errand , slept all day again. I think i have to have something going on.

 

[Survivor3]

People that caused me harm. f*cking assholes.

 

[Rani G2]

The Dead don't die = No not the movie
The inner Zombie calling

 

[Survivor3]

The Dead don't die = No not the movie
The inner Zombie calling

I've been a zombie all day. I hate it.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Specifically wondering what the hell I should do. I received an email back from the PM on Wednesday telling me the owner has decided not to proceed with finding the source of the problem in my unit, so I can fix it myself or I can go. Well, it would require my hiring an air evaluation company to determine what's in the air that is making me respond as I have for the past months that I've lived here. That is very expensive. Also, to fix this might entail opening walls and more construction in my unit. So, I was given the option to give a 30-day notice and to leave. I'm leaving.

Also, I have no job and very little money. I have no one here for support, really. Do I keep looking for a job here? Do I sign another lease? Do I go into an extended stay hotel and put my things in storage? Do I put my stuff in storage and go north to another city to try my luck there? (this town has been and is a source of a great deal of pain on many levels) Do I find a high bridge?! I just don't know. Brain is swirling and emotions are not in a good place. Trying to comfort myself, have faith and not freeze up are taking a lot of energy, yet I know I need to be applying for jobs and making decisions.

 

[Lionheart]

Hang in there @VioletButterfly once you make your decisions you will likely begin to feel better...at least that is my hope for you.

I am thinking about how lucky I am that I have not suffered a cardiac event with the heart problems I have had.