Childhood Bodily reactions

[Susan Jane]

I have a question about bodily reactions. I am trying to start listening to my body’s signals and this is something I tend to avoid because my reactions scare me and I have never listened. I don’t think I learned to trust them.

This morning I woke up again to my whole body overheating and shaking. I thought it was back in check the overheating. I was sure I had it behind me. The man I believed was my biggest love writes me and says nothing really. I don’t start conversations with him. He has been doing this for 10 years. We were together for 8 years…. Started 30 years ago. I left him, and was sure it was right back then. Getting older now and feeling alone.

He wrote me last week again and I put him off and said I would write at the weekend. I did and told him the truth about being in a bad episode. I asked for some understanding and support. He wrote back that he is sorry I have been unwell and asked if my son was helping. He didn’t respond to any of what I said.

Could something like this be the reason for my body overheating and me shaking? I have had a fantasy that he would save me, I know effin stupid, and I keep getting over him and the he writes again 5 weeks later, with what’s up and how are you?

Is this my body telling me, he is a stressor? I know that I should know myself but I am torn. Maybe I just want to keep hoping and trying to find excuse to continue. I would appreciate any advice or similar experiences Thanks for reading

 

[Friday]

Could something like this be the reason for my body overheating and me shaking?

Yep!

You could also ‘just’ be fighting off a cold. Or worse. But statically, a piddly ant minor infection. Completely and totally unrelated to the stressor, …except… that the immune system shuts down during exercise/stress. (Evolution says? It doesn’t matter if you would have survived pneumonia, if the bear eats you. So your immune system is hardwired into your parasympathetic nervous system (rest digest) which is over ridden by the sympathetic nervous system (fight or flight). So when the immune system shuts OFF? Pissant little nothing infections suddenly gain traction and breed in the billions/trillions/and we actually get sick.

80% of feeling “sick”? IS NOT THE MICROBE. It’s our immune systems. Doing what they were designed to do. No energy? (It’s all been rerouted to the immune system). Aching bones? Bone marrow “factories” pumping out antigens & white blood cells. Swollen/painful/everything? The lymphatic system going full tilt boogey.

I (and countless others like me) would get reliably sick the MOMENT midterms & finals were over. Why? Stress shut off our immune response, and adrenaline blanked our earliest systems. Remove the stress/adrenaline? WHOOMPH! Massive immune response, to all the germy miscreants catching a free ride. And 3-10 days of sick as hell to follow. Or 2-5 days of “Ungh! I feel crappy / like I’m fighting something off.”

For most of human history? Feeling flushed/feverish/piqued was both EXPECTED after emotional upheaval …AS WAS… potentially lethal illness. So people took it reeeeeeeally seriously.

In a post-antibiotic & IV fluids world? “It’s all in your head.” Dismissal.

Well. That IS where my brain is located.

Point being? Feeling flushed/hot/piqued after emotional upset? Is toooootally normal. 9/10 you’re just fighting off a cold. And will be fine in a few hours.

 

[Susan Jane]

Thanks @Friday Good info … it wasn’t a cold I think it’s my reaction to him now. He has let me down so often. That said I picked him , so I take responsibility . I just finally realized he is the duplicate of my dad… take about nothing all good. Speak the truth and have feelings? No response. It my cycle trying to get something from someone who cannot… be there… I just didn’t realize that my body’s reaction could be so well “physical” … I guess I am starting to understand how deeply it all affected me… Which is good because I can work on it more

 

[arfie]

learning to read my body signals was/is not quite as hard as learning how to trust them. it helps me to break that into two distinctly separate steps. when attempting to read my body signals, i strive to detach far enough to simply observe. i save the how's, whys and wherefores until i have finished collecting data.

this morning finds me considering a musical analogy. i don't get to sit down at a piano for the first time and be an instant expert on the musical techniques of mozart versus beethoven. listen first. analyze later.

 

[Susan Jane]

. i save the how's, whys and wherefores until i have finished collecting data.

Love it! I can be so impatient with this, and I think … especially when the body’s sweating and shaking