Urge To Cut Is Back

[Heather]

Heather, I hope my post didn't cause you too much distress :/

No, if anything it's made me really angry at my mother, brother-in-law and father! UGH! I hate all of them so much!

 

[Heather]

Oh, yea and my sister! I hate that fat @$$ b*tch. Add her to the list!

 

[freakofnurture]

No, if anything it's made me really angry at my mother, brother-in-law and father! UGH! I hate all of them so much!

Yo. Give it to them. They deserve it *grumble*

 

[Heather]

Yo. Give it to them. They deserve it *grumble*

I did. It's all over the SSA forum:p:tup::mad::devilish::ninja::eek:. I even named, named! A$$holes!!!

 

[freakofnurture]

I even named, named! A$$holes!!!

You rock so hard, the open ended Richter Scale would totally overflow trying to measure your hard-rock-ness. You rock so hard, you could grind a diamond to dust with one swoop of your mighty thumb. You rock so hard, it defies the laws of physics to the point where your sneezes creates new universes. That's how hard you rock, Heather.

 

[Heather]

You rock so hard, the open ended Richter Scale would totally overflow trying to measure your hard-rock-ness. You rock so hard, you could grind a diamond to dust with one swoop of your mighty thumb. You rock so hard, it defies the laws of physics to the point where your sneezes creates new universes. That's how hard you rock, Heather.

:):):)Nurture. We should go into business together. You write the lyrics and I'll produce the music. We'll get Pink to sing the songs. We'll make MILLIONS!!!!! After all living well is the best revenge! And then maybe my electricity won't get shut off. Ugh!!​

 

[Heather]

:DI think you're awesome! -- Nurture!:D:tup: Thanks for your support!

From one rocker chick to another

Love ya! Heather.

 

[freakofnurture]

I am pleased and humbled to be held in such high regards by the Queen of Rocking *bows*

 

[Heather]

I don't think I can read other people's post anymore about them cutting themselves because IT MAKES ME WANT TO DO IT!!!!!! This sucks A$$.

I think I will go over to the SSA forum and ask CB to put the names out there for the whole world to see, just NOT for members!!! Maybe that will help?????? Maybe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I still want to take a razor blade and do some serious damage! What is wrong with me?!? I feel like I am coming unglued at the seams. Again!! Although, I don't think I was ever glued together in the first place HA!:p

I HATE ME! Ugh.

 

[Heather]

Forget it I'm a big Woose! Which I knew I would be..... I can't oust them because I'm too scared.:(:(. I want to cry. I want to die.

 

[cherryblossom]

I think I will go over to the SSA forum and ask CB to put the names out there for the whole world to see, just NOT for members!!! Maybe that will help?????? Maybe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi heather, I'm sorry but I don't understand what you mean by this. If you want to discuss it further, either here, or by PC on either forum, if I can help, I will. (((hugs)))

Please be gentle with yourself. You have had a really rough time lately. You have been in hospital, and you have new medications, which take a while for your body to adjust to and also a while before they take their best effect. It also my take a bit of tweaking to get the right dose.

I also seriously suggest that you only use the forums, for your own benefit. I know how much you care about other people on both forums, but seriously, you need to forget about trying to help others, and concentrate on yourself. (Anthony will laugh if he reads this, because it is what he's always telling me, but I find it really hard to follow his advice).

If you need to vent, and ask for help and advice, then go for it. But don't take on other peoples issues at the moment. It's time to be selfish and just look after you and your family.

Crying is good, so allow yourself that release. But dying no - not good. This period in your life will get better. With the urge to hurt yourself, stick your hand in that bucket of ice - I'm sure it was you who gave that advice to someone else (If I'm wrong on that, I apologise). But it hurts and it works.

You may hate you today, but remember that there a whole load of people both here and in real life who would never put 'hate' and 'heather' in the same sentence. People care about you a lot. And people don't care, unless they see something good in a person. So even if you can't see it yourself, it's still there, so hang in there (moment by moment). Things will get better.

 

[freakofnurture]

Forget it I'm a big Woose!

A woose who still rocks hard. Hang in there and put that hate where it belongs. You're such a wonderful, friendly person, you deserve nothing but love, care and respect :)

Death and damnation to those who hurt you; tasty cake and a box of kittens to you. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you.