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Something I've Never Talked About Before

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molly63

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When I was a little girl, about seven or eight, I had a friend Kevy. She wasn't the brightest girl and had some problems at home as well as her mom had died.

One day she told me that she had something to show me. They were building apartments outside of our suburban housing complex and she said there was a secret spot.

When we got to this spot which wasn't more than a large crawl space behind a shed, there was a man waiting for us. He was tall and skinny with grey white hair and chin hair. She had a brown bomber type jacket on that had a security patch on the side of the arm. He had matching brown pants that had creases in them. He kept his hands in his pockets and he told us he just wanted to see our panties. I told him no and he told me it was okay and showed me his. They were basic white with blue on the band and they were the kind my dad wore. I kept saying no but he wouldn't let us go. I was really scared at that point and just showed him fast. He made me show him again, for what felt like a century. He smiled at me and said, "see that wasn't that bad." I was so scared I wanted to cry. I thought I was getting kidnapped. He told us to come back the next day and let us go.

I ran home so fast, expecting him to be behind me. When I got home to my dads house he tried to talk to me but my head was in a blur.

I have basically repressed the experience since and actually was able to forget about it for a number of years. It was only when I noticed that I couldn't bring myself to wear underwear or say the word panties that I remembered. I feel heartbroken that I didn't speak up, he would have been caught so easily.
 
When I was a little girl, about seven or eight
Something you think is so easy to reflect upon now, in hindsight, wasn't so easy at the time.

Give yourself a break... you were seven or eight, and maturity for decisions can be a struggle for us in adulthood, let alone childhood. It wasn't your fault... you were just being a kid, being scared. All blame and fault lay square on the adult who had you girls showing him your panties. 100% fault is his to own, not yours.
 
I feel heartbroken that I didn't speak up, he would have been caught so easily.

Oh my gosh, girl! You did exactly what was normal for somebody the age you were when that happened. You ran home fast, probably unable to express what happened at least partially due to being out of breath and tired, and then something else caught your attention - perhaps your mom calling you for dinner, your kitty coming in and wanting attention . . . ?

No fault. No blame. No guilt, girl! Just a big pat on the back for having good self-preservation instincts for getting out of there is what's needed!

;)
 
You guys are right, there was nothing that I could do and it wasn't my fault at all. I'm just happy that I had enough sense not to return again. Its hard to trust that God or karma brought him to justice, but I hope so. It just feels good to let this experience out and start moving on from it. Thank you all!
 
Did this happen in Nevada or another state? Just curious. I think I am just projected but the guy you described reminded me of my uncle. This man was pure evil and I know he got his hands on other children besides my cousins, me, and my sister. He had a shed full of pictures, tapes, all that. The FBI got involved after he died.

I always wonder what happened to other children he got his hands on.
 
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