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so i had a heartbreak again, i was so happy - my body felt so validated, all of a sudden it felt that hey yes i can be loved. we met during a meditation course and everything flowed so naturally, i had sex for the first time and well it was funny because i could not feel anything inside of her...

so well, life feels meaningless at this point - things are not panning out the way I imagined since the last couple of months and well, i expected so. i expected life not to swing in the direction i planned and imagined and yet this uncertainity has weighed so heavy on my heart. until now i used...

so well i think the apt word to describe how i feel is an impostor - i just feel so angry and overwhelmed from within. Usually the last two years, my work day used to end by 5 PM in the evening and now it does not. It stretches a little bit. I feel terribly lonely to deal with this - it's not...

Does anyone else goes through phases of freeze when the weather changes? In the last thrity days I have gone through 10 degree celcius variance almost every ten days as I was travelling and once the trip ended - I have been feeling super overwhelmed and heavy. Very heavy so much that it has been...

it takes so much, so much effort to reach out to people. To just call friends and have a conversation. It's very difficult for me to initiate these conversations. I still tried today. I keep trying once in a while, everytime I find headspace. To call people I could have a good conversation...

In my therapy session today, somethings came up. First - feelings of anger, jealousy, sadness which I have experienced with respect to my past relationships with friends, family and romantically - before I understood what my own boundaries and non-negotiables are. Now ..i am really struggling...

I talked to my school friend about relationships today. It was very strange because - at twenty seven I have zero dating experience and he mentioned that he has slept with almost thirty women. It's just awkwardly strange. Because I get super emotionally attached at the very initial stages...

Feeling anxious and overwhelmed after a small fight with my father. He is bitter at times when I stop being the caregiver to him. I am trying really hard to build boundaries. These boundaries end up feeling like a prison because I am so used to being a caregiver and it gets awfully lonely and...

So, this girl I really liked asked me yesterday to join for trip. I feel excited and overwhelmed. What if I start getting CPTSD related emotional flashbacks again - what will I do then? These flashbacks make me feel very abandoned and needy too and I feel I need someone to take care of me in...

I live with my brother and currently he is travelling for the next ten days. I have not really stepped out since Saturday, I did go out yesterday to watch a movie but today I have been just binging on Shark Tank India. Is that okay? Usually when I am home alone I experience a high libido too and...

Notes from Therapy: Barriers to pursuing healthy relationship and what are healthy relationships? 1.) i abandoned the relationship before allowing other to abandoned me, so i can have agency 2. ) i expect my partner to assume the role of caretaker and myself of a child 3.) romaticism 4.) fear...

So since the past one week, I have been feeling very sleepy and drowsy. It could be because of my Ayurvedic meds or I don't know, there is a sudden lack of interest I feel in everything and just I want to keep sleeping. I did have a goal for myself for this month, to lost at least 5kg weight but...

8:14 AM Notes from Therapy: What helps me when I feel overwhelmed/ in a state of panic/ abandoned? How does idealism affect my behaviour and emotional life? ______ After having panic attacks a couple of times every year, I have figured some of the triggers: it usually involves me...

Notes from therapy: By looking for a caretaker in a partner, you are trying to find ways to fix your past, your childhood. You cannot fix your past, the key is to be in the present moment. My fears are holding me back, they keep my needs to feel belonged and aspiration on hold. My...

So recently I told this girl that I had been seeing that I should stop talking to her because there is a huge mismatch with respect to how we feel towards each other. She was happy to have me around as a friend, I seek for more and I did not want her to start feeling pressurised because of that...

I don't have a lot of strength - to put alphabets together into words, words into sentences. It feels awfully tiring. I was doing well today morning, got up, made my breakfast, masturbated - completed morning work related tasks. And then suddenly because anxiety had taken a back seat, I...

Do you all believe in "the one" - the gut feeling of knowing that this person is the right partner for you? The person I have been romantically involved with since September 2023 feels just right, they tick all the checkboxes and it was so emotionally healthy. And a part of me continues to feel...

I feel like masturbating often, it feels relieving but it's tiring also now. Sort of like reminds me of my own loneliness. I have never had sex and I crave for intimacy deeply. Porn seems just bleh now. I have tried watching more of ethical porn and it is honestly the same. Nothing compares...

Has anyone tried Ayurvedic herbs like Ashwagandha for sleep?

I am not feeling okay. It is three more days before I see my therapist again. It's painful, the pain started in January 2022. Actually it has always been there. It got triggered in January when someone I dearly loved made my worst fears come true. She lied to me. I had asked her out a couple...

It was very recent that I asked my therapist about m diagnosis, she said it's C-PTSD. Last couple of months have been very difficult for me. I got very close to a person I started working with, she worked with my company and we got super close. Due to my past trauma, I have a tendency to...