Search results for query: Ritual abuse

I'm not really trying to seek help, I'm beyond that. I tried my whole life but not much came out of it. I had some measure of help, I wouldn't deny that, but never as much as I'd need, or maybe not the help I'd need - I don't know. As a way of presentation, I'll try to summarize my situation. I...

...who were either raised in satanic cults or were brought into them as young children. All children in these cults are victims of Satanic Ritual Abuse. This is a culture I never ever expected or wanted to be immersed into. It is evil in the purest sense. What these innocent children endure is...

Exactly the same as you, I have been disappointed by therapy. This is precisely what happened to me, too. So I have fired several therapists and never completed more than about four sessions with any one. It's known in their own profession that many therapists are looking for ways to survive...

Thank you for celebrating that with me 🧡 I should really make it a ritual to celebrate that once, every single day, right? Maybe get a nice candle and light it and do something to make the place nicer and more mine.

I don’t even know how to go about finding someone who could even begin to understand BOTH? Ptsd/trauma people ALL missed out on the obsessiveness of my personality. I am just deemed to be “too difficult” (by everyone). My Dr knows because he’s tried to help medicate it. The thoughts in my head...

Your other thread reminded me I’ve been meaning to hit up this one since having a chat with an ex boyfriend a few days ago. We were talking about how diagnostic criteria & McHelp only seem to focus on symptoms/expressions that annoy other people. The diagnostic makes sense, as that’s what is...

...I'm intrigued. I used to be a member of a forum (it sadly no longer exists), of trauma survivors, many of which had escaped SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse). Their horror stories of the rituals and torture that were part of their abuse, which was always worse on Halloween, were appalling. I'm well...

...dissociative identity disorder in 2018 by a clinical psychologist and in 2020 by a psychiatrist. I have met someone who also had millions of polyfragments, she also had gone through ritual abuse. I have full amnesia with my traumatic memories...the traumas were severe enough that it split my...

I, for one, need sympathy from my therapists when I drop a bomb. Sounds like this may not be a good fit. I'd go with your gut.

...that I needed to hide in the school's toilet during break times. I have been ritually abused for 12 years. I have been through satanic ritual abuse, mind control and programming. It is related to the church, religion and Christianity. I had gone through secondary traumas as well, witnessing...

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...abused from age 1-18, had been bullied at school from primary, secondary to university every year and I also have been through extreme ritual abuse. I had been hospitalised for 7 times, 3 times was ICU and had 4 suicide attempts. I have DID. I am the core speaking, there are 3 hosts...

I'm blessed to have been off all meds for 2 years but I was on them from 11 to 23,I think they had that side affect amongst hundreds of others. Certain things can make body pleasure easier closer to access like long bath ritual,sensual stuff. I think it's EVERYTHING. the abuse..the neglect...

Mostly because they are not the same acts, same punishments, same pain, and same trauma anymore now that they have an identifiable terminology that you can use to reference what they really were: torture. Up until this point, you did not recognize them for what they were (torture) but instead...

I can tell that this can be especially hard. But maybe looking at it a different way might help. Like your dad was the cause of the abuse, not the making of a meal. Plenty of people other than your dad make meals and feed themselves that do not abuse others. It is a universal task with a sole...

It's good you don't have anything to do with him.

Yeah, your mom sounds a lot like my dad. He used to hit us for waking him up. I struggle with justifying it because he has to wake up early for work, but yeah, definitely NOT okay. He has a lot of rage, and the weirdest shit flips him out. For example, he has a huge trigger for anything related...

Thank you @Defaultxlove I know I’m making progress so I just need to continue to be gentle with myself. That’s exactly what it is, too…a complex punishment ritual. Agreed. I’ve been really focusing on writing throughout my therapy journey so far. It’s given me lots of new insights and I can...

thank you so much for this reply. you dont need to apologize for going on, i really connect best with other people by sharing experiences. I wanna reply to some of the things youve pointed out and go through them in order 1. I have absolutely no clue if my brother was sexually abused before he...

@z3phyr, was your brother abused before he started to make these advances toward you and before you two started to do sexual acts? I ask because, though childhood exploration of their own and other's bodies is common, this seems a bit more then that. Or was it you that started to explore sex...

Oh my days vickster this used to be so me! If a guy was nice to me I would do everything to be with them. I wouldn't be able to see their ulterior motives. They would promise me everything,have their wicked way then throw me to the side. I kept going back again and again. I was so gullible and...

Exactly! I just handled piles of crisis and threat, even staying with abusive family (which I was safe but on guard) and I had that DOWN and people remarked well done. Now? No crisis but my brain turning IN ON ME. SI is like... it is an escape? It is a help in my twisted thoughts. Even...

Wanting to acknowledge that sometimes when I am interacting with the outside world regarding the subject of parts, there are these moments of... Harmony? Cohesiveness? Like everyone in there is happy with what I'm saying or doing? They feel seen and heard and appreciated. It's a very distinctive...

I don’t see any fluff here, but you haven’t seen me write. I completely know your experience as the same thing happened to me - too many times to count. But it was with a dentist, and his advances didn’t seem out of the ordinary because I was trained from a young age. This affair went on for...

I’m not sure if i’m posting this in the right place? anyways .... After accomplishing so much and feeling so strong and at the start of year 5 of therapy ( well slightly less as i had a 5 month gap) ive decided to work on/tackle my ocd and rituals . These have previously felt like a protection...