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About Lost It Last Last Night

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I really lost it one night, booze, and pills. Broke some doors, then went out in the yard shooting my M4 into a tree. I can't recall any of it, people told me about it the next day. Scary stuff
 
This is just my opinion.

I have been off in some rage's before, breaking stuff, out of control. But that was way back when I was first diagnosed. Now I still get angry sometimes, but my responses although loud are rather controlled, I also remember nearly everything.

JoeNavy, I don't know how far into therapy you are, but if something on TV causes you to go off shooting your weapons out back, regardless of where you live, then you need some serious help, you need to check yourself into a VA hospital. What if you were in a town and something you saw an advertisement that set you off, or the same thing was on a television in a shop. Get yourself some help mate.

I have seen people who have not been diagnosed, and people that are unaware what is wrong with them, they are the people I see going off and not knowing what is happening.

Maybe I am having a bad time at the moment, but I am so sick of people using PTSD as a right to go on drunken rants and causing damage. They know they have an illness but refuse help.

Just my opinion..............
 
I read back and I guess put myself back in 1991 before I got diagnosed and out of control so understood the situation.... but ya you need to go talk to someone.. Jimmy kicked me up to at least 1999 when I finally got help and got diagnosed so started researching and learning..

I get on my "circle the complex on the fence line because I heard a noise" things.. and have had thoughts race through my head of "I know exactly where to insert this key on my keychain to sever that artery in your neck" but for the most part that's where they stay... in my head...the most I have now is words... and it ends with one of us backing down..

I don't own a weapon now for obvious reasons, I have access to them but choose not to because of my history with them... I have my safety valves built in... and now I am getting Nala my 70lb boxer baby.. a big cuddly ball of teeth and muscle... so I feel safer.. and have someone who doesn't care what kinda mood I am in to love me...

Go talk to someone, talk to us here etc... but while we can give you insight... the VA or equiv where you are is your best bet..
 
OK. I don't normally go for subtleties but here is a distinction.

Joe, the guys' concerns are valid, but I've lived on isolated properties and have firearms so maybe there's another side to this.
Sometimes we say, or describe, things in a way that is open to mis-interpretation and can alarm others. (I do it with my lass all the time).
Now, the way I see it, there are two takes on what you said you did -

1. Something triggered you and you went out of control and shot up the scenery with half a box of rounds before reality re-asserted itself. As Angle and others remarked, could've gone horribly wrong.

Or.....

2. Something on TV pissed you off to the extent that you got into a foul mood (I know how quickly that can happen) and you thought 'bollocks to it' and went outside quite deliberately with the intent of putting thirty rounds into the dirt, confident that you could without any consequences (be different once you've got horses, though). Not much chance of anyone, let alone followers of Allah, turning up while you were doing pistol practice....

Case 1 is not good, Case 2 is no different to shooting the f=#k out of a target, but less rewarding..........

Thing is, mate, you've got to be honest with yourself. Which was it?

One final thought. Put those targets up. Safest direction, whatever face you want on them, and patch them up between sessions. (see if there's constructive improvement, don't just make the gun go bang).
 
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